I woke up in a barn with no memory of the events that transpired the day before. What kind of bender did I go on last night? Things have not been easy since the events of the massacre that took place not so long ago. I still hear the screams of my men, the cries from the women and children. It replays in my head while I'm awake and asleep and when I try to sleep it seems to play in slow motion while I dream or nightmare, you could say. The screams are haunting, I haven't been able to get a full night's rest. I'm so sleep deprived, I'm starting to have these spasms, muscle aches, joints stiffening to the point it becomes so unbearable, I start to drink; hoping it will numb me and knock me out. I'm not even picky about the kind of drink I down...