Actually, for my introduction, I would just say that I am an introvert and who always feels like being an introvert is the worst thing that has ever happened to me.
Even though I am an introvert, I am like good at giving answers, talking on stage n explaining any topics but when it comes to socializing with others, damn I am terrible at it.
I am also good at studies and an introvert on the top of that so that's why it gives people a good reason to hate me in school. My school life is just really messed up that I have kind of started hating my school. In school, I just cannot wait for the whole period to just finish so that I can go to my home as home is a safe place for me where I can express my feelings well.
Also it's not like I have been hating school since childhood. School was fine for me till middle school. Although I didn't have much friends, mostly people's behaviour was nice towards me even though many were jealous and didn't like me but no one behaved very badly with me and all.
But in highschool, it all became really bad.
I had two friends in middle school but they left school. It wasn't like they were my best friends but atleast they were the friends I knew were not jealous of me and I could trust them. But in 9th I just started feeling really alone.
Now many of you might think that how a whole class can be jealous of me and don't like me, there must be fault in me only then everyone is against me. I get it man, but before judging u must know my before story.
So I know that I am not like God gifted or something. I am a just topper who's good at extracurricular also. But like there are so many schools and there are a lot of toppers in them and it's not like every topper is suffering from the problem I am going through.
So in my section, there is my competitor too who's also good at studies and I appreciate that. but she seems to hate me. She never said it to my face but she just pretends like she is good but behind me, she's manipulated everyone that I am bad and all, and as I don't have any friends left, I just cannot share how I feel to like anybody. I often see them pointing towards me and I can feel that they are talking bad about me but I just don't know how to stand up for myself.
they often say mean words to me indirectly and all and I also just don't have the guts to stand up in front of like every girl in my section. If only, I had a single friend, I would have felt much better. but as everyone hates me I cannot express how uncomfortable I feel at school, how miserable my condition gets.
Many of you might think that I am just overreacting but no man, one can feel so heartbroken cuz of these mental pain.
And one day, the jealousy of my classmate went too far that they did something totally crazy. It made me start to hate school even more. Never in my life did I ever think they'd would go this far in hatred.
I will tell you about it in the next part which I will post very soon.
I am very grateful to you all to read till here.
Have a fantastic day and you also share your experience and any opinions you have with what I shared.
I will be glad to see them.