Don't let go of the past, convince yourself he still wants you, think, over think, "he wants you" "he needs you"
convince yourself your happy. Think of all the memories and time you put into him, the money, the time, the work, the pain. Think and Think. Think untill your brain rots. Hurt yourself till you faint. Find something that help, to numb the thoughts, drugs. Day by day, drug by drug. It numbs the pain. Momentarily. Find stronger drugs. Numb untill you feel nothing. Held on life for too long, let go. Don't run away. Don't leave. My love is the same, as his hate is the same. OD, keeping doing it over and over untill satisfactory sets in. Which is Never.
Die.
Plan it.

Don't let others know, make them think your at a friend's house. screenshot a way to a bridge, with water. It needs to be painful. get there. sit on the edge for hours thinking, over thinking, analyzing their past words, movements, actions, remember everything they did to you. And jump.
just like that, forget of life
it sucks anyways
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