Soul and body are so united that one cannot distinguish between them. I tried many times. My thoughts went haywire, my heart started racing in a grand prix, my skin realised that it has hair that stand straight sometimes, but I couldn’t separate that two. Why did I try so? What was the need? What would it have given me? I was restless and I didn’t know why. An array of hidden thoughts in my subconscious mind surrounded me and made me feel helpless. I started questioning myself, my identity and my exact location in this mysterious world. I found my body to be fixed in one definite known location, but my mind was somewhere else, roaming around in the mountains, diving deep into the ocean, feeling the empty space and somewhere forgetting what I actually was. I went deeper. I recalled all possible actions done by me which were known to me only, all possible outcomes that I witnessed over the time, all unknown impacts that are left behind due to my imperfect thoughts and implications. It was so broad, so varied and so much diverse that I saw. Memory is a bad thing if you are not in your senses. Still, after making me strong again to moved ahead, I went further. I saw faces and places, I smelled different smells, heard different voices and all these made me feel perplexed for some time as I realized how unimaginably infinite my engagement with the world around me is. It’s never just about me, be it my decisions, thoughts, actions or even my existence. I am accountable to everyone I see, meet, talk, feel or witness over the timeline of my life. I felt that my soul had shown separate identity from my body and this made me feel so light, open and timeless. I have been here before and I will come here again. I am nothing but I am everything. I get affected but I do affect as well. I love deeply and so do I get without asking. I have more than 6 senses to feel the umpteen emotions of this short period of a never ending time. I am everywhere, I know everyone and I can see every possible thing. The purpose of my body is to personify my soul for the time being, nothing else. At this deep, I touched my face and I felt that it’s a body made of flesh and it’s alive because I have to live in it. This body made me weaker somehow but without this, I couldn’t meet and experience people in my life. I appreciate it. I felt great proud of having a body for myself. I started coming out. My body and soul reunited. I again saw faces, places and all, but this time, I understood the value to each and everything. There was nothing to regret as I can’t change anything that has happened. I have nothing to worry as I can’t change anything that will happen. I, with my body, am sitting here in my room, wondering why I never ever realised this before. I could have lived it better, much better. Suddenly, I found a great respect for people who ever loved and appreciated me. I owe them a moment at least, in my thoughts. Now I am certain that I am going to follow my heart because in that way I will not have to think a lot about the outcomes. I will love silently and openly both. This way I will have my own privacy and openess for my feelings. I will explore every possible aspect of this world which I can experience. I will take deep breathes and feel the air inside me. I will sleep deep and see both good and bad dreams. I will hold hands of those to whom I never want to loose. I will apologize to everyone I have hurted over the time. I will express myself more to the world to reciprocate clearer exchange of thoughts with people and ambience. And finally, I will always believe in my gut feeling so that I never miss what shouldn’t be. To myself, stay there, stay as it is and let the world have you.

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