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Flashback ****
/ February 07. 2013 / in Australia

Bondi beach, Sydney, Icebergs

I was in the middle of drinking my cocktail at the bar to lessen my stress
And for me to get chill
But I was interrupt by this Handsome Pinoy Boy Infront of me
Istead me drinking my cocktail he is the one who drink it
Stupid jerk I say in my mind
Because of I was totally drunk
I was about to walk away but he stop me and say
It's already late and you will walk alone" He said

" I'll join you to your way home its dangerous if you're alone. We're just neighborhs anyway but you didn't notice me..

I didn't even protest and let this stranger hold my hand for me not to fall on the ground

As we walk through the streets
Why I feel that the time tick so slow?
Or it's just because I drink a lot of shots of cocktail?
I'm I dreaming or not?
The stranger smile at me
He's to handsome when he smile
My heart beat for a while

My life has changed when I met this Pinoy boy named Ash Ron Mendoza...


/ December 18 , 2017 / Australia

6:30 Pm **

I decided to text ash
invites him to go out with me
After I invited him
He accepted it
I got a reply for him

See you! : Ash
Seen. 6:47 Pm

But I didn't know, That would be the last message I will receive from him...

I'm already here in our meeting place.
The place where we've met a few years ago before where being friends.
I checked the time
It's already 7:30
Where's that jerk anyway?
I texted him.
I waited for his reply but there's still no replies I've got.
There's no reply. I mumbled.
It makes me worried right now

8: 10 Pm

I got a call from Ash
So I smiled as I saw who is calling me
But my smile fade as the person who is talking to me is not Ash Ron
It's a stranger and tells me that Ash Got into A car accident and hushed to the Hospital
And I saw your bestfriend lying in the hospital bed
Lifeless

I was shocked and hurt
Why did you leave me Ash I shouted
I cry hugging my Bestfriend body
Lifeless..

My life was quickly falling out of my hands and reality wasn't within reach, I felt helpless. I needed to find a way out somehow, someone or something to influence me in a better way by helping me out of the major hole I had dug myself into.
It started when ash ron passed away. I couldn't accept the fact that it was something I had to conquer for my entire life. I was an emotional mess. This would just end up being an even bigger mess.

So as I began to make friends, I went on any places where I could find happiness with my friend. I always was annoying back then and never seemed to get my homework done at school. My plans and life had gotten turned upside down. My mom said I had to go back in the Philippines also for me to more on ...
So I told my friends and they were downhearted that I'm leaving for good ..

After Ash Ron died
His mother give his diary, because its Ron's request to give it to me.

As I open it.
(This is the content)

Dear: Diary

I have a girl best friend whom I secretly admired. And it's no longer healthy anymore. I badly want to speak out my feelings for her. I'm scared what if after I confessed my feelings about her, she will ignore me?
I'm afraid that I will lose herin my life. She's my precious gem in this world.

My one and only best friend El del Acosta.
The girl that I adored the most and cherished every second, minute and hour of my life with.

Today is the day I'm going to confess my feelings for her. No turning back my decision is firm before its too late. I want her not just now but for the rest of my life. I want to grow old with her. I really do love her.

I do have a journal here I always write every time I can't speak out my thoughts or feelings. And especially my affection to my best friend El. I write those statements that I actually want to tell her but I frequent not to do it.

- Ash Ron /12.18.2017/

Present Time / February 08. 2020 /

El POV

Another day
Another memories to make
Another pain to take
Another smile to fake...

I was wake up by th sunlight entered my room
And my mom shouting from the kitchen of the house
And say
" EL
WAKE-UP ALREADY ... YOURE GONNA BE LATE! "

" HUH LATER FOR WHAT MOM! " I ask back
As I walk towards the bathroom
After I take a bath and get dressed I wear my favorite converse black shoes matching my boybesyfriend's jaket that he give to me back when we first met at the bar in Australia.

I'm here staying in the Philippines
To move on and start a new life
As I look my self in the mirror
And say
I wish I can bring back time
But even if I want to
I can't bring back the time
Before the accident happened..
Before he's gone
And now happy with out me

The band ... Especially Anna
I can't believed that she blame me of what happened back 2 years ago.
She blame me that I'm the reason why ash died.
I already moved on
Ash leave , Scar stay
Memories is hard to forget
And the person I loved the most.
I just meet Ash Ron Mendoza in my life
To make me strong and dependent person
But it's hard to accept that we meet but we're not destiny
Because of him

I write....
I'm YanieWrites...

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© Yanie