FUUUUUUUÙUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK

the person God made me in this life, with such narrow perspective, heavy mentality and the shittiness to hold on to things like stupid grudges, past pain, people pleasing attitude, little regard for how I treat love, who tf I am, who tf I am not, who tf I am supposed to be, and allowing other willing participants to come and take the love I have literally burned in hell for since in past lives.

I want to say Thank You to God, but I am seriously gritting my teeth now.

In my next life, I had better be a better fucking human, smarter, wiser...

I hope. no
I hope and pray I never have to do this stupid, dumb stuff again..
because...

I feel weak.
WHY DOES MY SPIRIT FEEL SO WEAK!?

so






God.

do evil people even care that they're evil?
WHY DO I CARE SO MUCH?
WHY DID I JUST WAKE UP TO TEARS AGAIN?
WHY DID MY BODY JUST CONVULSE TO WAKE ME UP?

WHAT IS HAPPENING?





I HATE THIS.

I HATE IT.


HOW DO I DISPENSE OF THIS MOVEMENT FROM MY CENTRAL NERVOUS SYSTEM IN A POLITE WAY?¿?


HOW?