It's been a while..

it's been days, it's been months.

since i last wrote a song or a story
about life and nights.

My Exams are done and i pass
I say goodbye to my highschool life.

The demon is dead
but he still haunts me in night
The past i want to hide
always appears in my eyes.

But i am stronger than before
I will be keep pushing myself
untill i reach my destination.

I am achieveing small goals
on my way during my journey.

i made it into the place
i want to belong.
made my parents proud
but that wasn't enough.

The place i belong
has people who are strong
stronger and smarter than me

I am insecure about everything
from my looks to skills.
But i made some friends
who believe in me.

i feel gulity
when I see people around me.
they are who they are today
because they workes hard.
But i spent my whole life
doing nothing but overthinking.

At times i feel lonely
a disturbance
a burden
a boring person
that nobody wants to hang to with

But the light my heart says
That i can work hard
and become irreplaceable

I have set my Standards high
it will take a while
to reach them

I know that i am childish and dumb
airheaded and Naive
But i don't it to be me anymore

i want to be strong and independent
smart and reliable
want to reach the amazing me i dream of

it will take a while to transform
untill then i promise to work hard
this will be last long break in my life

i will be writing
every day and every night
again.


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