~~~~the first day~~~~

I keept on sending massages but lilly never responded I didn't know what to do the scratching and screaming only made it worse it felt like .....it felt like i was being punished and for the first time I remembered my parents ascendant .... I know it's my fault....I know .....if only I didn't act like a brat ..if I wasn't that selfish ...they might be still a life I know my dad would have saved me and lilly my mom will probably hugs us and make as feel safe......but they can't because of me .my family was not that rich we only had a house and a music studio that my dad owns he was so in love with music he kept humming song's all day long my mom was working at a flower shop the money they made wasn't much but they never complained ...it was a good life on my tenths birthday all my friends had this game boy I wanted one so bad I was hoping my parents would get me One but after I opened my last present it was a scarf I started crying they didn't understand why .I know it wasn't there fault but I just wanted them to pay attention to so I run as hard as I can .I run so much that I started hearing my heart beat the night was cold dark and lonely I found a kids park I thought that they will find me fast and take home but they never did and I couldn't keep up with the cold so I went home but no one was there was no one my neighbor come after hearing the door open she said that my parents whent out to look for me and left my sister withe her .
the night ended and my parents still didn't come back I was sad I didn't know what happened then the door bell started ringing there was two cops my neighbor sara pushed me and my sister in a room so we don't hear what the cops are saying .but ..I ..did..they found them dead they where stabbed to death by a crackhead just because he saw mom taking money out the ATM to buy me a stupid game boy .after that me and lilly ended up living with my aunt and her husband I couldn't forgive my self and just in one year my hair turned from as dark as the night sky to white they said it was because of stress .we loved with them for 4 years but I began to notice that my aunt husband started to look in a funny Way to my sister and one day I found him touching her trying to take her shirt off I was so mad I broke a vase on his head before taking my sister and running back home ever since that we begin to live together .my aunt and her pig of husband never talked to us again . started renting the music studio to outsiders the money was enough for us some neighbors helped us when we needed.it was a life I can't complain because it's oll my fault I killed my parents because of me lilly Olmst got raped and all of for what for a stupid game boy and now I did the same thing again for a stupid pack of cigarettes I ended up locked in closet withe two ugly zombie looking mutherf***ers and two dead bodies one of them killed by myself.
I was setting there on the cold floor thinking of what I could have done difrently I was feedup with everything why can't I live like normal people why do I have to loose everyone I love. why ...why...why....why.. only me I wished I died and not them I wished I was stronger then a flash of light reflecting on the knife blinded me and it felt like a massage from god I should kill myself even if I don't what can I do every time I start something it ends up being a disaster I grabbed that knife putting it against my chest and just when I was
about to end my life my phone vibrated it's a number I don't know he sended a text to me it said
_ James I'm sorry my phone feel when I was running from the monster but I'm fine now il text you more tomorrow the batteri is about to die stay safe and please save me I can't take it anymore please brother
the tear's started falling down I know it was not time to give up it's my time to fight even if I died I keep lilly safe and If anyone tries to stop me a human or a monster I'll kill them all.

THE. END of day 01





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