As I open the door of our house, I saw Lily sitting on the sofa. She's watching another drama while slowly munching her popcorns.

I passed her by. She noticed me and divert her eyes from the tv for a second.

"Oh, your home! How's work?" she asked.

I go to the kitchen first, open the fridge, and get a glass of water before answering her.

"Same same. Nothing you wanna hear about." I replied.

She didn't talk back after that. I was about to go upstairs when I heard her sniffed.

"Hey, are you alright?" I asked out of concern.

She wiped away her tears with her palm and sniffed again before she chuckle.

"Oh! Haha! I'm fine. I just got emotional when Leon forgives Patricia after she cheated on him and all. I feel his pain." She explained. I think she's talking about the two characters of the drama that she's watching.

I sighed. I thought it's something.

I turned my back but she asked me again. "Did you eat already? I cook lasagna for dinner," she said.

"I did eat already. But keep your lasagna for me. I know it's delicious, I don't want to miss it." I said.

I heard her laughing and say ok before I went upstairs.

I'm sleepy that's why I immediately washed my body. After that, I laid on my bed. But before I close my eyes, I think of the leading man that Lily is talking about earlier.

"He's kind.... and he's strong," I closed my eyes and opened it again, "Can I be him?" I asked myself before completely closed my eyes.

I envy those who are simple minded. Life seems easy to live with for them.

I always think that I am strong. But I just really don't want to admit that I'm weak... and vulnerable.


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