At times i desire to stop.
When the world around me is hazy.
My emotion eludes me.
Pain is what envelopes me.
I do desire to stop.

But can i?
Don't i covertly desire to continue?
Do i not want to smile,
with a person i crave for?
Yet the sinful desire lurks.

I beg to lord for little humanity in me.
Yet times guilt hold on to me.
Guilt of continuing.
It feels wrong to desire.
Totally wrong... to continue.

I am empty.
Bare of liveliness.
What do i have?
The drought has long back approached.

I am too scared.
What if, you too, is just an illusion?

#voidofnight
© Laily B.