All I want to do
Is be more like me
And be less like you
But they keep pushing you under constant pressure
They mocking me
Not respecting me
This kind of treatment makes me smile hopeless,
And say "You're nothing, useless, worthless and people hate you" to myself,
I can feel the tears that contain of uncounted pains that I've keep inside of my heart secretly to flow in my cheek,
But, that tears just swept away by the pain as it becomes immune with me,
My only wish is to be far away,
Far from wveryone that no one could reach me,
I want to feel that kind of real freedom,
And to be happy forever up there.

I'm holding on,
I'm trying to be strong
Trying to comfort my own self,
Give compliment to myself
But,
even though I tried, it all fell apart,
Why is everything so heavy?
Holding on,
So much more than I can carry

I know I'm not the centre of the universe,
I'm tired of everyone's judgments,
I'm tired with their two faces,
No one wants to accept my flaws.

Feeling so faithless,
Lost under the surface,
Don't know what they expecting of me,
When I already tried all of my best not to hurt their feelings,
But instead the one who always getting hurt is me.

I become so numb,
Every step that I take is another mistake to them,
I become so tired,
So much more aware,
I keep smiling and act like nothing happen.
But the fact that,
My heart hurts,
My inner self is in pain
Feeling so faithless, lost under the pressure
I'm tired of everything, of everyone.

One thing, I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
All I know
Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It's so unreal
You didn't look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Tryin' to hold on, they didn't even know
I wasted it all just to watch you go
I kept everything inside
And even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory
Of a time when I tried so hard.

Then I realised,
Sometimes pain doesn't just come to teach us,
Pain can motivate me,
it impels me all depends on me,
how much I overcome and use it to my advantage,
the way I face the challenges I have been through,
and above all how I change the situation in my favor,
to grow with them.

My journey is not going to be easy,
I know that.
Every stone on the way seems to block the view of the wonderful things that await me at the end of this road, blinding me before the brilliant destination that awaits me.
There is no obstacle that I'm not effectively able to win!
Have perseverance and, above all,
Be calm to analyze and make my own decisions correctly.
My story must be written in the best possible way and, one day, it will inspire someone.


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