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Intertwining relationships
Last night as we sat in the car, me mulling over the people who have not taken the time out to see me for me. Who has hurt me so much that it seeps in my present, how I'm at the point in life where I want to be selfishly all about me. Not worrying on how to please them. Even wanting to sharpen my tongue and speak exactly what's on my mind just to make my headspace more at ease. That the only person outside of The Creator himself you are the one that sees all the potential in me, you see the things I push down and supress. Its a vulnerability that I have had the pleasure of having in you and it's only because The Creator opened your eyes to those things.
To think I had to be forced to move on the other side of the United States just for Him to have our paths meet. A journey not many are able to even obtain, let alone imagine. You came with a confusion on my end. I didnt understand why I couldn't keep my eyes off you, how when you spoke it made me intrigued.... yet, there I was hook, line and sinker in the deep end without even realizing what had happened. You then came in with a wind where we were pushed together once again by His design timing, placing you and me as a team in learning my new job. You put so much thought and care into getting to know me, planning our first date, meeting your family on the third day. A story that happened so quickly but, just exactly what both of us needed.
The man and woman, a combination of completion, me having the extra rib you spared to create woman. A bond that intertwines beyond the depths of this lifetime. Time after time He will create a match that will keep both woman and man to not be alone, to have in one the other lacks and vise versa the opposite. It's a push and pull relationship so that in the end, the two and the children that are added to this bubble of love, are feeding off the source where that union all began. That spark no one can explain but feel it anyway.
To think I can talk to you about anything and you, me and we feel at ease in that space. To speak words that brings life into one another's beings. Even in the time of miscommunication, hardships in one selves to have someone fighting for you as you do them is just amazing. A bond that gives you a smaller scale blueprint of what a relationship with The Creator should be like. A man leading and a woman helping him to be what The Creator called him to be but also him giving guidance in logic to get her to the place she needs to thrive completely. It's a relationship of that give and take that stretches you to your limits and expands each to a place your soul and person alone had never thought it could reach, let alone obtain.
Relationships are compromises, communication, growing pains, times of silence and alone time to reflect and still know that when the silent times are done being had that they come together stronger than they began. it's times where one may be weak and sometimes may even stumble but the one with the strength catches them, dusting them off and shows them where and how they got to that place in the first place. It's reflection of the soul as an individual and a union to become one as each day ticks away. Its about communion in a safe secret place that only them two know as special and reserved for only them. No matter the tears shedded rather that be in hurt, happiness or anger they still hold that bond that can not be explained. The Creator gives us examples of how to be in every type of relationship we have on this earth on how to approach Him in a certain time.
As I spoke to you those words of hurt, what I seen and the places I've been and where I'm at today, I realized that the safe space in your presence gave me the freedom to let go. It was almost like in those moments a harden section of my heart was cracked and the softness took it's place, as I made a decision to let go of all that hurt and pain. As the words parted my lips that I have never moved in a fashion that I put myself first and just do all the things that bring Joy in my life for no one else but my own... that I have always put the needs, the words, the hatred of others into my own head, replaying it all over again I placed my self in a victim mindset but also a repetitive mental cycle I can break free of by just being unapologetically me is just baffling to even think. It took 30 years but I'm finally standing here giving my all in places I had not even dreamed of being. All because The Creator and you combined have reached out a hand to push me past my limits. There is no going back and if I'm honest I genuinely don't want to. I just want to look at today and tick off one more box off my list. Giving you back the encouragement you gave me to pursue all the dreams The Creator placed inside of you and me.
To think I had to be forced to move on the other side of the United States just for Him to have our paths meet. A journey not many are able to even obtain, let alone imagine. You came with a confusion on my end. I didnt understand why I couldn't keep my eyes off you, how when you spoke it made me intrigued.... yet, there I was hook, line and sinker in the deep end without even realizing what had happened. You then came in with a wind where we were pushed together once again by His design timing, placing you and me as a team in learning my new job. You put so much thought and care into getting to know me, planning our first date, meeting your family on the third day. A story that happened so quickly but, just exactly what both of us needed.
The man and woman, a combination of completion, me having the extra rib you spared to create woman. A bond that intertwines beyond the depths of this lifetime. Time after time He will create a match that will keep both woman and man to not be alone, to have in one the other lacks and vise versa the opposite. It's a push and pull relationship so that in the end, the two and the children that are added to this bubble of love, are feeding off the source where that union all began. That spark no one can explain but feel it anyway.
To think I can talk to you about anything and you, me and we feel at ease in that space. To speak words that brings life into one another's beings. Even in the time of miscommunication, hardships in one selves to have someone fighting for you as you do them is just amazing. A bond that gives you a smaller scale blueprint of what a relationship with The Creator should be like. A man leading and a woman helping him to be what The Creator called him to be but also him giving guidance in logic to get her to the place she needs to thrive completely. It's a relationship of that give and take that stretches you to your limits and expands each to a place your soul and person alone had never thought it could reach, let alone obtain.
Relationships are compromises, communication, growing pains, times of silence and alone time to reflect and still know that when the silent times are done being had that they come together stronger than they began. it's times where one may be weak and sometimes may even stumble but the one with the strength catches them, dusting them off and shows them where and how they got to that place in the first place. It's reflection of the soul as an individual and a union to become one as each day ticks away. Its about communion in a safe secret place that only them two know as special and reserved for only them. No matter the tears shedded rather that be in hurt, happiness or anger they still hold that bond that can not be explained. The Creator gives us examples of how to be in every type of relationship we have on this earth on how to approach Him in a certain time.
As I spoke to you those words of hurt, what I seen and the places I've been and where I'm at today, I realized that the safe space in your presence gave me the freedom to let go. It was almost like in those moments a harden section of my heart was cracked and the softness took it's place, as I made a decision to let go of all that hurt and pain. As the words parted my lips that I have never moved in a fashion that I put myself first and just do all the things that bring Joy in my life for no one else but my own... that I have always put the needs, the words, the hatred of others into my own head, replaying it all over again I placed my self in a victim mindset but also a repetitive mental cycle I can break free of by just being unapologetically me is just baffling to even think. It took 30 years but I'm finally standing here giving my all in places I had not even dreamed of being. All because The Creator and you combined have reached out a hand to push me past my limits. There is no going back and if I'm honest I genuinely don't want to. I just want to look at today and tick off one more box off my list. Giving you back the encouragement you gave me to pursue all the dreams The Creator placed inside of you and me.
