It’s currently spring. Personally, one of the most beautiful experiences I’ve had was walking the seasons throughout the year. When summer came, we complained about the weather and how it just did not sit right with our labors and when winter came, we couldn’t hear each other over the ruffled sounds of our coats on a cold night.
I’ve sat through 3 seasons with the most beautiful man I’ve had the pleasure of spending time with and this season, He was nowhere in sight. I can’t seem to understand why I am longing for a stranger I’ve never shared a full sentence with, however his absence made me realize, it was no simple crush.
Perhaps I am delusional, but God in Heaven, how I miss this man and I just want him back. Even if all we have to share are “good mornings” and sit in complete silence, each contemplating about our own individual lives. I miss our mornings with cigarette clouds, him and his coffee and I with my unhealthy addiction of fizzy drinks. Both aware of each other’s presence but somehow comfortable in each other’s presence. He always kept to himself most of the time while I talk up a complete stranger I’d just met. I wish I talked to him, but he always seems so peaceful, graceful, even at times I just can’t seem to muster the courage to say anything other than Good morning or hello.





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