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The Girl They Named Yolanda
part 3.
through her eyes
She was born broken and for years she spent making broken into her own beauty, but now she's shattered, and she dont know it unfortunately, scattered like ashes Watching herself turn into dust, She doesn't know anymore, She doesnt fit in with the rest, even at her best, She couldn't pretend anymore, She use to have purpose And then she was unsure!
She is stuck in the depth of hell, burning on Earth for eternity. She's seen it, trust me running from the darkness as she see her light dim, not once or twice, and now She is surrounded by them, the demons i mean . There is no way she can leave She's stuck. Stuck there, Zombified! Horrified!. Finally seeing what shes meant to see,
She is backed into a corner She felt it, she even said once there coming for me, She wasn't meant to be. She felt defeated & she got tired of pleading ..She knew she wouldn't give up, but who to say she wouldn't have gave in, I mean she tried and tried When she thought it was her against them She knew she wouldnt win this time she knew,
She surrender. On her knees She begged them just take me now do it hurry please, She knew they would not As they just laugh and mock her. Playing with her as if she was a toy for the hounds She won't fight them but she did stand her ground. Quietly this time not making a sound "
Shhhh! Hush.
A glimpse of me passed by but as a memory I know it instead of an image. Remembering the life I use to live and love slightly, i was a delicate being, A joyful person, I could light up a room when I smiled, but I could also dim It to if I was saddened. I felt that smile I use to smile. but not definitely,
as it has been a while since i had smiled or remembered what one felt like. A little piece of myself flew by her today I know it because the scent i use to wear, she said she could smell . Dancing right passed her, with her my best friend, to the music she now listens to , and i like it, A light still shines upon her day,
She's knows im here, its funny although I'm not really there, only a glimpse Of myself still passes by. I know left you behind please know I didn't Run away, i know i hurt you when i died. I just felt so alone sis, if you only knew I had to go, I didnt want to, I just couldn't hide anymore. I shattered inside.
She stood in front of a mirror as she watched the world fade, like the begining of an apocalypse the world went from bright to shades of gray. A girl who had lost her self, time and time before, as it crumbled she told herself to breath, but she dies inside each time more and more.
Sometimes it felt like when i would find something good It was always hard to accept So I had a tendency to push those I cared about away, and I don't know why I would do that, maybe I didn't want to bother those with my thoughts or it was becasue when i told one of my close friends she made fun of me. But i just went wirh it was just how I have always been,
Concept Conception consists misfortune persist So one runs Forward into the mist, well metaphorically speaking as I was starting into the mirror, chatting to myself in my head. I had always felt wrong even though I knew i was always right, Finally I considered giving up, on a fight, just to agree and be mask behind the porcelain painted on smile.
It was a battle I knew deep down inside I would never win Everything I was doing in life it felt like it was mocking me, laughing at me, Standing in front of me like a colorful silhouette, Mimicking me as i moved, it followed Gracefully and elegant until one day it had disappeared and no matter the situation I was in I wasn't innocent.
Almost like I was in a routine state of mind, like it was programmed in a way. Id wake up eat breakfast, then proceed to brush my teeth, monday through friday this cycle repeats, i would shower, get dressed, starting with my hand in one sleeve, as i stand there for minutes deciding on sweatpants or jeans. In a manner I'd grow tired of as I see myself growing unhappy
School, class, lunch, cllass, home and repeats, as I'm only staying strong for my sister , she wouldn't understand, because she had autism, and had saved me many times before, she was always there, and it wasn't far for her to have taken a charge she didn't understand because she thought she was protecting me.
Damn it.
through her eyes
She was born broken and for years she spent making broken into her own beauty, but now she's shattered, and she dont know it unfortunately, scattered like ashes Watching herself turn into dust, She doesn't know anymore, She doesnt fit in with the rest, even at her best, She couldn't pretend anymore, She use to have purpose And then she was unsure!
She is stuck in the depth of hell, burning on Earth for eternity. She's seen it, trust me running from the darkness as she see her light dim, not once or twice, and now She is surrounded by them, the demons i mean . There is no way she can leave She's stuck. Stuck there, Zombified! Horrified!. Finally seeing what shes meant to see,
She is backed into a corner She felt it, she even said once there coming for me, She wasn't meant to be. She felt defeated & she got tired of pleading ..She knew she wouldn't give up, but who to say she wouldn't have gave in, I mean she tried and tried When she thought it was her against them She knew she wouldnt win this time she knew,
She surrender. On her knees She begged them just take me now do it hurry please, She knew they would not As they just laugh and mock her. Playing with her as if she was a toy for the hounds She won't fight them but she did stand her ground. Quietly this time not making a sound "
Shhhh! Hush.
A glimpse of me passed by but as a memory I know it instead of an image. Remembering the life I use to live and love slightly, i was a delicate being, A joyful person, I could light up a room when I smiled, but I could also dim It to if I was saddened. I felt that smile I use to smile. but not definitely,
as it has been a while since i had smiled or remembered what one felt like. A little piece of myself flew by her today I know it because the scent i use to wear, she said she could smell . Dancing right passed her, with her my best friend, to the music she now listens to , and i like it, A light still shines upon her day,
She's knows im here, its funny although I'm not really there, only a glimpse Of myself still passes by. I know left you behind please know I didn't Run away, i know i hurt you when i died. I just felt so alone sis, if you only knew I had to go, I didnt want to, I just couldn't hide anymore. I shattered inside.
She stood in front of a mirror as she watched the world fade, like the begining of an apocalypse the world went from bright to shades of gray. A girl who had lost her self, time and time before, as it crumbled she told herself to breath, but she dies inside each time more and more.
Sometimes it felt like when i would find something good It was always hard to accept So I had a tendency to push those I cared about away, and I don't know why I would do that, maybe I didn't want to bother those with my thoughts or it was becasue when i told one of my close friends she made fun of me. But i just went wirh it was just how I have always been,
Concept Conception consists misfortune persist So one runs Forward into the mist, well metaphorically speaking as I was starting into the mirror, chatting to myself in my head. I had always felt wrong even though I knew i was always right, Finally I considered giving up, on a fight, just to agree and be mask behind the porcelain painted on smile.
It was a battle I knew deep down inside I would never win Everything I was doing in life it felt like it was mocking me, laughing at me, Standing in front of me like a colorful silhouette, Mimicking me as i moved, it followed Gracefully and elegant until one day it had disappeared and no matter the situation I was in I wasn't innocent.
Almost like I was in a routine state of mind, like it was programmed in a way. Id wake up eat breakfast, then proceed to brush my teeth, monday through friday this cycle repeats, i would shower, get dressed, starting with my hand in one sleeve, as i stand there for minutes deciding on sweatpants or jeans. In a manner I'd grow tired of as I see myself growing unhappy
School, class, lunch, cllass, home and repeats, as I'm only staying strong for my sister , she wouldn't understand, because she had autism, and had saved me many times before, she was always there, and it wasn't far for her to have taken a charge she didn't understand because she thought she was protecting me.
Damn it.
