All my life, I've never heard anyone say to me something like "you're beautiful", "you're smart" or even "I know you can do that".
Instead, all I knew was--my brain was weak, I couldn’t do anything and I couldn’t contribute for the lives of others.
When I was in elementary, I experienced embarrassment in class when my teacher threw my bag in front of my classmates just because I was late, which made everyone laugh at me.
Since then, I don't feel like studying anymore but I still attend because I don't want to be scolded by my parents.
A few years later, I did graduate from elementary but my grades were just enough to pass and they were in line seven. I was able to enroll in the first year high school but in the last section.

"Miran, we're in high school now, so fix yourself", Frida told me. Frida is my twin sister--she is beautiful, smart and brave in everything. She is also often compared to me which is why I envy her. I just frowned in response to what she said.

It was afternoon when Frida and I went out of school together.
"Frida, when I get a line of nine grade this quarter, you will give me the watch that mother bought for you. What, are you willing?" I said to Frida and at the same time I took the watch she was wearing in her hand. Frida grabbed it from me. Reason for me to push her but I didn’t mean to. She fell on the side of the road. I immediately went to her and helped her stand up. I picked up the watch she had dropped on the road. When I looked behind me, there was a bus running towards me. I close my eyes to the pain I felt from being hit and I don't know what happened next.

When I regained consciousness, mother and father hugged me tight.
I was said to have been asleep and unconscious for several months according to Frida's story to me when I woke up.

According to Frida, they didn't buy me a watch because they were saving so they could buy me a cellphone. That way, I might prefer to study well.
Frida added, "I know you're jealous of me because our parents always praise me. I'm more jealous of you because even if you're a stubborn person, mama still loves you. Do you know that they scolded me because you had an accident just because of a watch worth 100 pesos. " Frida laughed once holding my hand and she hugged me.
© angie