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diane • part 3
4 months later..
Everything in college seemed pretty boring to me, our teachers weren't too good at their jobs, my friends from class weren't real, i just kept them for entertainment purposes because I knew I didn't want to be friendless. It got difficult to trust anyone, except - Blair.
I met met two months after college had starterd, she was looking for a benchmate in class and nobody offered her their seat so I offered her my seat, so sweet of me now that I actually think about it. Blair is completely different from me, she has a different aesthetic and we both definately don't think alike. She listens to the same music as me but her dressing style reminds me of Chase Atlantic. Blair became popular over time and she did not take advantage of it, which made me think is a major green flag to look for in a friend. She knew how to play musical instruments and was pretty average in academic. But her outlook on life gave me a reality check. She managed to fight depression and anxiety and came out of it all alone without the help of a therapist of phsycologist, she's indeed brilliant.
I would look forward to meet her because she would make the whole class laugh and would make jokes that would make you lose it.
But lord did I think she would too fall in love with Jeremiah :(
I have NO idea why I would gatekeep Jeremiah, and my heart would ache everytime she would jump in her seat when Jeremiah walked past our classroom. She was too nervous to talk to Jeremiah and I was too scared to tell her that I danced with him when college started. But I didn't hesitate, One fine day, in a pleasent afternoon, I put it into ease
"I hate to break it to you, but I danced with Jeremiah, two three months ago for the Ball"
Blair looks at me with glaring eyes, it seemed as if I had broken her heart by the unsettling truth
"How the hell did this happen, I want to date that boy!"
Ooops. Blair looking at me as a competition gave me a wrong perspective of her. I didn't want to talk to her more about it so I eventually walked her home and went back home myself.
After reaching home, I received a call from Jeremiah. How did he find my number!? I'm pretty sure I remember telling people that I didn't have a phone number.
"hey, can we talk outside your house?"
I nodded and asked him to come to my front door since he would visit my place to meet my mom who liked Jeremiah alot.
Having Jeremiah over wasn't surprising but having Jeremiah and BLAIR at the same time made me uncomfortable.
Blair showed up to my house to talk about Jeremiah and my relation with him. To her surprise, Jeremiah was there too and now everything seemed difficult.
"what are you doing with Jeremiah Fisher??"
"Blair, leave. Now."
Jeremiah walks near the main door and leans against the door frame to get a better look at Blair.
"I don't know who you are, But I can tell she doesn't want you here"
"She's my best friend" I say whispering to his side
"Ouch. My bad. Am i supposed to be the one to leave?" Jeremiah asks stiffening his back and his arms folded across his chest.
"No, she needs to leave, I already talked this over with her earlier"
Blair didn't utter a word to me, she darted and headed straight outside my view.
I shut the door and run my way to my bedroom to curl up on the bean bag and cry my eyes out. I didn't just disappoint Blair, I made her lose my trust, she won't trust me with anything and it made me feel weak. I knew I had to make it up for her later on that week.
Jeremiah climbs the stairs and enters my room and locks the room door. I look upto him with my eyes full of tears. Jeremiah sits beside me with my hand in his hand "I should have left, shouldn't I?"
No he need not. I needed Jeremiah more than anything. He meant more to me than anyone else. He was the real one and he has been the loyal one too.
I jumped into his arms hugging him, and he hugged me back too. He rubbed his hand behind my back and asked me take deep breaths because I nearly passed out. I had a breakdown front of this boy and he calmed me down in the best way possible. After losening my grip on him i wiped my tears and let my hair down, let it fall down natural.
Jeremiah tucked my hair behind my ear and looked at me in the eyes. It felt beautiful having him around and he made me feel really special. I knew it was about time that I'd confess my feelings for him but something held me back. I didn't want to upset Blair. If Jeremiah rejected me then, I would make a fool of myself to not only Jeremiah but also Blair. I would have to mend things with Blair first before confessing to Jeremiah. I did what I thought was the right thing to do.
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Everything in college seemed pretty boring to me, our teachers weren't too good at their jobs, my friends from class weren't real, i just kept them for entertainment purposes because I knew I didn't want to be friendless. It got difficult to trust anyone, except - Blair.
I met met two months after college had starterd, she was looking for a benchmate in class and nobody offered her their seat so I offered her my seat, so sweet of me now that I actually think about it. Blair is completely different from me, she has a different aesthetic and we both definately don't think alike. She listens to the same music as me but her dressing style reminds me of Chase Atlantic. Blair became popular over time and she did not take advantage of it, which made me think is a major green flag to look for in a friend. She knew how to play musical instruments and was pretty average in academic. But her outlook on life gave me a reality check. She managed to fight depression and anxiety and came out of it all alone without the help of a therapist of phsycologist, she's indeed brilliant.
I would look forward to meet her because she would make the whole class laugh and would make jokes that would make you lose it.
But lord did I think she would too fall in love with Jeremiah :(
I have NO idea why I would gatekeep Jeremiah, and my heart would ache everytime she would jump in her seat when Jeremiah walked past our classroom. She was too nervous to talk to Jeremiah and I was too scared to tell her that I danced with him when college started. But I didn't hesitate, One fine day, in a pleasent afternoon, I put it into ease
"I hate to break it to you, but I danced with Jeremiah, two three months ago for the Ball"
Blair looks at me with glaring eyes, it seemed as if I had broken her heart by the unsettling truth
"How the hell did this happen, I want to date that boy!"
Ooops. Blair looking at me as a competition gave me a wrong perspective of her. I didn't want to talk to her more about it so I eventually walked her home and went back home myself.
After reaching home, I received a call from Jeremiah. How did he find my number!? I'm pretty sure I remember telling people that I didn't have a phone number.
"hey, can we talk outside your house?"
I nodded and asked him to come to my front door since he would visit my place to meet my mom who liked Jeremiah alot.
Having Jeremiah over wasn't surprising but having Jeremiah and BLAIR at the same time made me uncomfortable.
Blair showed up to my house to talk about Jeremiah and my relation with him. To her surprise, Jeremiah was there too and now everything seemed difficult.
"what are you doing with Jeremiah Fisher??"
"Blair, leave. Now."
Jeremiah walks near the main door and leans against the door frame to get a better look at Blair.
"I don't know who you are, But I can tell she doesn't want you here"
"She's my best friend" I say whispering to his side
"Ouch. My bad. Am i supposed to be the one to leave?" Jeremiah asks stiffening his back and his arms folded across his chest.
"No, she needs to leave, I already talked this over with her earlier"
Blair didn't utter a word to me, she darted and headed straight outside my view.
I shut the door and run my way to my bedroom to curl up on the bean bag and cry my eyes out. I didn't just disappoint Blair, I made her lose my trust, she won't trust me with anything and it made me feel weak. I knew I had to make it up for her later on that week.
Jeremiah climbs the stairs and enters my room and locks the room door. I look upto him with my eyes full of tears. Jeremiah sits beside me with my hand in his hand "I should have left, shouldn't I?"
No he need not. I needed Jeremiah more than anything. He meant more to me than anyone else. He was the real one and he has been the loyal one too.
I jumped into his arms hugging him, and he hugged me back too. He rubbed his hand behind my back and asked me take deep breaths because I nearly passed out. I had a breakdown front of this boy and he calmed me down in the best way possible. After losening my grip on him i wiped my tears and let my hair down, let it fall down natural.
Jeremiah tucked my hair behind my ear and looked at me in the eyes. It felt beautiful having him around and he made me feel really special. I knew it was about time that I'd confess my feelings for him but something held me back. I didn't want to upset Blair. If Jeremiah rejected me then, I would make a fool of myself to not only Jeremiah but also Blair. I would have to mend things with Blair first before confessing to Jeremiah. I did what I thought was the right thing to do.
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read the previous part first
☻ 𝐜𝐚𝐦𝐩𝐛𝐞𝐥𝐥 𝐟𝐚𝐮𝐛𝐞𝐫
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