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The day i died...
It wasn't painful at all, it was beautiful. no, it was otherwordly, it felt strange like touching cold water with my toes, I've never been that powerless before or was it much more like numb?... i really dunno! do you?
I'm choked by oxygen, disturbed by the noise silence around me causing , i'm blind but i see, I'm mute but still loud, where am i? i know this place but i am feeling lost!
It fell off like tree leaves, the tree of my life, i dipped my hand inside my chest fingering my ribs looking for it, that little slice of meat, "the heart". H for hard, E for end, A for ache, R for rage and T for tears. i found it and i ripped it off, i wanna eat it cos it causes me seduction, it waters my mouth...
i'm locked in my skin it feels so tight that every bone is crushing inside, i see my body laying there like umm.... i don't know, I've never saw a body thrown like that before, it looks cold, it feels silent, it smells dead, it is empty. i took few steps close i tried to touch it, I'm as curious as i was alive, i wanna feel what a dead body looks like, especially if it is mine, i tried to feel that breeze on my face but still i failed, exactly like i did when i was inside of it, i guess there is no difference then, it's the same, it's just there is no gravity here and feelings are much more reversed. remind me again! what was the last time i felt anything, was it few hours ago? no it was after i shout the first time in your face! all the laughter, tears, blamings and feelings were fake, same as you. actually i don't know what those things are because I'm just reading this from a sheet of paper i found in my body's pocket. it clearly says that:" i turn myself into a feeling cemetery and that I'm faking it all to LIVE...." hahahaha this is hilarious don't you think, the living thing , me, you? let's keep reading " i burned myself to enlighten you, but all i became was ashes and embers " i looked at that body layed there and all i could say is " you were in pain, you were killed before today... you were already dead... "
© Roisin
I'm choked by oxygen, disturbed by the noise silence around me causing , i'm blind but i see, I'm mute but still loud, where am i? i know this place but i am feeling lost!
It fell off like tree leaves, the tree of my life, i dipped my hand inside my chest fingering my ribs looking for it, that little slice of meat, "the heart". H for hard, E for end, A for ache, R for rage and T for tears. i found it and i ripped it off, i wanna eat it cos it causes me seduction, it waters my mouth...
i'm locked in my skin it feels so tight that every bone is crushing inside, i see my body laying there like umm.... i don't know, I've never saw a body thrown like that before, it looks cold, it feels silent, it smells dead, it is empty. i took few steps close i tried to touch it, I'm as curious as i was alive, i wanna feel what a dead body looks like, especially if it is mine, i tried to feel that breeze on my face but still i failed, exactly like i did when i was inside of it, i guess there is no difference then, it's the same, it's just there is no gravity here and feelings are much more reversed. remind me again! what was the last time i felt anything, was it few hours ago? no it was after i shout the first time in your face! all the laughter, tears, blamings and feelings were fake, same as you. actually i don't know what those things are because I'm just reading this from a sheet of paper i found in my body's pocket. it clearly says that:" i turn myself into a feeling cemetery and that I'm faking it all to LIVE...." hahahaha this is hilarious don't you think, the living thing , me, you? let's keep reading " i burned myself to enlighten you, but all i became was ashes and embers " i looked at that body layed there and all i could say is " you were in pain, you were killed before today... you were already dead... "
© Roisin
