People say "expectation hurts" but have you ever looked at people who are capable and willing to give anything you want but you have nothing to ask for? You are not ready to expect or accept anything because you don't believe that they can give what you desire for, you doubt their intentions. Even if it's good, you are afraid of not being able to give them back, no matter how efficient and honest that one is. You don't really trust anyone to be there for you, you need none, you already overfit the idea of being too much independent. To be precise, you feel the peak of dangerous self-sufficiency, right under your feet.

You want to feel how disappointment pierces the stone-hearted ones, how expectations make the pillows wet. But you can't feel anything as of now, for you've already sold your senses for a sense of armour. You think you won life by owning the numbness, wearing it around you, but you are losing it instead. This realization can hit harder than the disappointments that expectations can bring.

It's okay, you don't have to worry now,
You won't feel anything new.
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