#ugh








For once in my life I don't know what to do, I wish you knew what I'm going through.
I really need somebody to talk to the only two cons would be I don't want to sound weak and the second one would be therapy is expensive.
I assuming no one was thinking about poor people with problems.
Somehow my life decided to take a few spins to see where it would land, but this is not gambling.
This is not a game it would be nice if my life could go back to normal, or at least how it was.
Instead of getting worse sometimes I feel like I am cursed.
My problem is I am helpful to those who would never help me back & I know that, but part of me still feels bad.
My second problem is I get so sad though it comes & it goes away I just want a day where I can stay happy all day.
Now we are moving on to the third problem that is my workplace lately now I wasn't going to tell anyone but I am getting treated unfairly & lately I have been very stressed out from work plus other problems but a lot of it has to do with work & don't get me wrong I usually love my job.
The fourth thing is I am not single again & I'll tell you why this is a bad thing, because he is actually crazy but I love him, I tend to pick "the bad ones the always make me sad ones".
Moving onto the fifth this one is my health conditions, which the stress is making worse, body parts are actually starting to hurt more & more, I really didn't know that stress could do all of this, I am continuing to get more sick.
The sixth one kinda goes along with the fifth one and it is weight gain, I have received a lot of judgement for gaining ten pounds in the past, however back then I was running track.
The seventh one of my this is not going to be fun the seventh one is I got myself a room who not payed anything in rent or bills at all, he says he's going to but I don't know I'm thinking he'll just come up with another excuse instead of just tell the truth.