People are starting at me, don't know what to say. Wish I was more normal maybe I could have got less stares, wish I had a normal pigmentation so I can see my skin colour even. They call me cow, demon! maybe a freak , unusual witch. Wish I could be more human like, maybe I could have not got those names. Applied make-up , trynna fix it even skin tone, covered with full sleeves trynna cover the hands, wore full pants often trynna hide the legs. Wish I had it all even maybe the condition itself 100% ; less and less the confidence goes , more and more the self doubt raises, don't and don't my parents told me but I was very uncomfortable with my life.
Thought I couldn't live a normal life, wish I was like everyone. Then my mum came up to me and said, you're just unique and special than everyone. That made me feel a little good, she told me to see in the mirror the best person she have ever seen. My dad came towards me and said that I'm the most beautiful person to his eye, I got tears in my eyes and they hugged me tight. I don't know what they said if it's right, the next day I came out with a little might and they looked so happy.
Wish I loved myself more, I discovered there's more to life. Wish I embraced the way I looked, those bullies aren't any obstacle to me. And it's not too late to be late, I found the best one today, it's very right to be right the way you are, just accept it girl I said. I'm happy and smiling more than ever I did in my entire lifetime and now having a good job and an amazing family ; why waste even this single minute ? why not smile more and worry less? why not work more and self doubt less? Yeah! that's what I did, shhh!!!.......that's my little secret


© RR
17-July-2022
(BG credits : Feminism in India)
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