Lines of Love; Chapter Seven

Cait/

Standing at someone's side as a mute is the most painful experience to give them. This holds more true when they love you so openly but you refuse to acknowledge it allowing them to suffer silently. That's what Astra did with me at least and I never once tried to lift the burden or take away her pain. I selfishly stayed at her side becoming the worst kind of human being I could. No one compares to the damage I did to her in life and of that I'm aware. Words no longer hold any meaning with her so all that's left is showing her. Because I was supposed to be her best friend and yet I let her suffer for so long because of my fears and cowardice.

Victoria is the reason I could grow into an adult even though she was also acting selfishly. But because of that, I was able to face my mistakes which forced me to relive them as well just so I could fix them. My words failed her before so if my actions fail her then I guess I was meant to walk such a path of self-hate. Perhaps that's just how much I loved her even though I never told her, sometimes I wish I was like Joy. She did what many have no courage for even though she could lose the most from what she did. But her conviction is something to envy especially when she doesn't regret her decisions.

I'm surrounded by powerful people all I needed to do was open my eyes and take the...