Been a child I never thought about consequences of my actions or things I did. Never for a real look in my future just live day by day. lot had happened, I know not only me had been true disapointed, lost, in pain, betrayal and broken hearted. As a kid me and my brother was by ourselves, mostly. Working as a kid, sharing what ever we had .We had parents and they loved us but be with us was not an option. They wers busy celebrating day after day. after those days forwards I felt lonely, left behind and not needed. In my path I had lots of people I trust and try to help but never those people had sticked around to help me when I needed them the most. My trust to people is broken since then.
In time going on, doing more and following others, I lost people who cared.
Like I said, me and my mum were never very close. Always failing, Always arguing. Even when I had my first child, I didn't tell her till 8month of pregnancy. I was scared and ashamed. My boyfriend then did approve it too. And I didn't want arguing with him because I was in love, I thought. But time going and again I was alone, left behind. But I had my kids ,and I tried to do everything it's possible to give them the best future.
Then thanks to my brother I went over to see to keep my promise to my kids.
Even Talked with my mum a lot and we become close.
I met an amazing man and we got married .Everything seemed ok. I found my place, I was part off amazing pack.
Couple year ago, my mum past away. Miss her so much. She was the only one I could talk about everything to and she was always incouraging me to the right path ,she loved my poems but after she passed I lost my inspiration.
Right is way for me to speak about everything.
All just make me remember about consequences in the past. I'm trying my best to make sure my kids have a place to return, sholder to cry on and discuss everything whats on they minds with out judging x
© inita