Reminiscing back to the unbearable, initial months, I searched for what was wrong with me. As each seconds tagged along, each breath left me, I thought about my worth.

What am I living for?

Being so exhausted about my way of living, I grew more reluctant about holding on higher, not to crumble to a world of nothing. Sometimes, I would wake up in the middle of the night in a hurry to check whether I’m still breathing.

Never once, I asked the question, what was keeping me awake?

I kept making several excuses, several lies to just get away from everyone, not sure why. My overwhelming mind kept swirling with millions of thoughts, never halting for a while and that’s what drove me crazy. My mind...