They said that Christmas is for everyone. Well at least for them they think that Christmas is for everyone but for people like me, Christmas is only for them; for people who are celebrating and laughing and enjoying whatever they experienced at that moment but for me who is suffering and alone, I think that Christmas is not for me. It isn't meant for me. I've always known that I have experienced Christmas all by myself, just lying on my bed and pretend like it isn't a holiday to celebrate. It seems like it is just a normal day for me, a day will pass and then another one came.

Until one day, everything changed when I met Luke. He's the person who made me feel like I mattered. He is person that makes me feel like I'm the most precious possession that should be taken care of. I admit that it feels nice, it was my first time to experience that feeling.

The most unexpected thing for me happened when Luke asked me if he could court me. That moment, I was stunned, unable to move and completely speechless. It was also my first time to have experience such thing, like being courted and having people making me feel so special. It's overwhelming.

The courting stage didn't last long, it was never in my belief to prolong such thing like...