PTSD Monsters
As I lay asleep I'm suddenly awakened in a mixture of sweat and tears having heard my door opening once again as a child my fear returns. He walks in and rubs my face and hair but its not comforting at all. He's a new foster dad in a long stream of them in the late 1980's-early 1990's, background checks back then just weren't as available or accomplished as they are these days I Heard a Voice I've heard for so many years he claims to be the son of hypnos and a Mortal mother.He says his name is Chase killian Hypnos. His voice calms me and his presence is comforting filled with Promises of the ending my nightmares and all the horrible memories and replacing them with positive thoughts instead. Suddenly I realize that I'm still asleep and the nightmare man is still there but so is chase .Chase pulls a flaming sword and tells me to close my eyes and I obey When I Wake the next morning I find my new Foster father is laying on the ground in a pool of blood.As I start to panic I hear Chase tell me to calm down that he has been watching my abusive life from the beginning and is personally taking responsibility for my protection and care. As I stare at the dead man on the ground I feel a little apprehensive but I leave with him. I always thought he was only a part of my dreams until I quickly realize that my dreams were all terrible memories that always ended the same way with chase killing my monsters and putting me safely to sleep then replacing me in a new home,he became my social worker then my guardian until I was adopted and before too long I had another monster to fear. In the middle of the night the foreign exchange student we welcomed in opened my door again with unwanted contact , Suddenly I hear Chase saying something to him but I can't understand for its in his native tounge. The next morning he requests to go back home and never return based solely on a monster not quite a God but definately not human.Chase is suddenly ringing the door bell when my adopted mom answers he asks to come in and then inquires as to my well being and how things are with the exchange student.As he hears his voice the foreign exchange student named Paul begins screaming incoherently about having indecent actions and thoughts towards me. Chase walks in the room and Paul jumps out of the window in to traffic and is slaughtered by a car that ran a stop sign.My family takes his severe reaction as guilt for his actions against me when Chase's inquirery about him and my wellbeing. After that we went on vacation I was 10 then I didn't see chase again until I slept and would relive the childhood terrors and he always chased them killed them and put me to sleep peacefully.I am still comforted by his voice and presence he hasn't aged past 28 years of age. He still has blond hair that hangs longer in front and the deepest turquoise eyes I have ever seen,He is always dressed in fitted jeans a black T-shirt and black leather jacket,his clothes always appear to fit him like a second skin,and only recently have I realized my secret crush on him. He has become my everything he still comes to me in my dreams and sometimes even when I'm awake but now he comforts me in different ways all while chasing and killing my monsters and easing my PTSD.
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