It was morning and sunny day as usual, i picked same old shirt and trousers matching and got myself out of my closet.Just like other days i was late for office

in a speedy manner i caught same usual train, everything was normal on that day too. Everything was happening like as it has been happening since last one year.

I got in first class compartment of mine just like other days and there she was just like other days. Holding silence of nights and excitement of rising sun in her eyes,

Numb yet beautiful.


Just like former days, we exchanged silent glances, a smile or may be smirk or so i thought. I have been seeing her from last past year same train same coach and same

me. She was wearing white jeggings with nice blue floral printed tunic which exactly made her look like she just been through spring season and landed in summer 

just for me. 

"What kind of jerk he is??" or "how spineless he is, who couldn't make an effort to come through and talk ?", thoughts like these comes running in and out of 

my mind and i shook my eyes off her. As there was nothing unusual from other days, so there was flood of people too as train progress towards its destination.

Before getting off train, i again peeped at her, she, away from me.


I get off to station and approached for rickshaw just like other days too, but then something happened, which was unusual. She came into my auto-rickshaw, sensing her

next to me, i got nervous. We were sitting adjacent to each other, this time facing in same direction, not at each other but looking forward. Her hairs were open just

like my mouth. I was getting that faint smell of hers from everywhere, i couldn't look at her so i was looking outside rickshaw and impulsing myself that this

is the best time, you won't get her this close, after this one. Make a move and be a hero, come-on Shaan you can do it. 

Enveloped by all these thoughts, i reached to my office stop and signalled "auto waale bhaiya" to halt. He did, and i get out and was looking for my purse, which later

i found out i missed it somewhere else and now i was cemented like how to pay him, i asked him "bhaiya do you use phonepay, paytm or Googlepay", he looked at me

like i asked for his one kidney or took her daughter for date.

Now she popped in and said, " bhaiya, take these for both of us", which he accepted with full grace, 

"I LOOKED AT HER AND SAID THANKS BUT I WILL MANAGE, SHE SAID IT'S OK AND DON'T WORRY, YOU CAN PAY ME LATER. COMPREHENDING IT AS PERFECT MOMENT, RATHER THAN

PAYING YOU BACK, I CAN TAKE YOU OUT FOR COFFEE AFTER OFFICE HOURS, TO WHICH SHE SMILED, I TOOK HER SMILE AS SILENT APPROVAL", i was filming all this in my mind,

but just like other days i was quiet and she turned back and walked off, without even looking at

me or for me to thanks her.


I was cemented there, all words were stuck somewhere not ready to pop out and i was just watching her go.


I wanted to ask her for coffee, i wish i could and i wish she would say yes, OH, GOD please help your this poor child...

I wanted to ask her for date, a place where it will be just two of us and stars. Silent stars witnessing how much i love her, i am dying to die in strands of those

hairs which make her beautiful, i want to see how she looks, when she smiles, and sad ones too with puppy face. I want to see how her BIG BEAUTIFUL BLACK EYES shrink

and enlarge all at one time. I want to know will her eyes be glued to me, when with me or not.


But all this, all of this revolves around one question,


Will i be able to ask her out ??

Even if i did, will she say yes ??

Will you ??

I wanted to ask her.....

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Shikha read all of it from Shaan's laptop, who was not on desk and shikha couldn't wait and she came to him asking for coffee break in canteen.

As she was done reading, CTRL+ALT+DEL and enter and she went back to her desk, when shaan passed by her she popped up and said you owe me some money, "Yeah, yeah,"

shaan went for his wallet and shikha interrruped, its ok, 

"Can we settle it over coffee in canteen ??" , She said with smile

Shaan looked at her and said, "I owe fate a thank you for giving me you".

sipping coffee she replied, " You can write numerous pages,but can't confront it to me", " am so unlucky"

"rather you the only lucky one for whom i write", and her eyes twinkled in response, enlarged and shrinked at the same time. ❤️


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