~I remember, I still remember

The love I felt. That first look. That which made me crazy. That I never understood. It wasn't romantic, it wasn't hormonal. It was very pure. Back then we were kids. Real innocent. All I ever wanted was him to be my friend. I wanted him to smile every now and then.
He was not just any guy. He was special. No, no super powers, I think so his postive aura attracted me. He was calm, serene, Looking at him was like gaining immense peace.
I had to be his friend, I was really working hard making universe to bring me close to him. I really did take efforts 2 months were left. The pre-finals were about to begin, so they were granted study time. All I was left was 2 weeks before holidays.
I took my slam book and made sure every girl senior I was friend with from his class filled my slam. Everybody did now that his cousin sister was left, the one who was difficult to approach. But eventually one day after school ended I approached her and said , "Please fill my slam, make sure your brother fills it too". And I ran off to my bus in a hurry. I was breathless. I was freaking out. Did I just do that? Is it real? Oh God. Oh Dear God. Will...