The fact that I am so used to feeling "affected" and "depressed to the core" got revealed when I started to feel curious about my mind being at complete peace for a stretch of 7 days.
My own mind asked me "How are you finding comfort in days with null events and excitements in it ? Why are you not freaked out ? Does your skin not feel itchy anymore when you wake up to zero notifications ? How are you not yearning for obsessions now ?"
And then, even my mind went quiet; there has been no more questions.
After a very long time, or perhaps, for the first time since adolescent, my body's at peace and it isn't craving an "energy rush". I wake up with zero plans in mind yet feel glad to be awake.

Something changed. Thank god it did.
Well, the clouds are dark still, but I see the silver lining now
© Aisarya Bhattacharya