The Inside-Out Diaries
Entry: Secret Feelings
4/13/2021
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I was just thinking about what you said about how you can't keep denying your feelings for someone else. And I thought about what that meant for me. I tried to imagine myself dancing bachata in an empty park with someone. Or skateboarding down empty streets at midnight. Or even having a movie marathon and eating junk food until my stomach explodes. I think about my first kiss or even my first real boyfriend. I think about introducing my boyfriend to my family and spending holidays together. And the truth is I can't think of anyone but you. I've tried. But I can't. I don't know what this means but I do know that I want you in my future. And maybe even as more than just my best friend. I know this might be unfair to you because She just confessed to you, and you like Her but this has been eating at me for a long time. I'm not expecting anything from you, I just needed to get it off my chest. If you were anyone else I wouldn't have the guts to tell you this but alas, you're still my best friend and the person I trust the most with my feelings. I hope that doesn't change
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