I did believed this life is a race, a showcase of who gets to ride on the fanciest car and reach the finish line fastest. The earliest, the better, the more esteemed. But these days I'm thinking, what if it was not. What if life is not about how advance others are from where I am. What if love is not a matter of romance between me and my soulmate. OR what if soulmate is not about having a mate but having to keep one whom my soul deeply resonates with one time or forever.

What if all this time I have been living a life with love and success. What if I'm already here at the brightest stage of my life? What if I'm having the best of times right where I am and it need not to be elevated to something more grandeur?

What if it was not what I thought it was.

What if that one moment with him was all the romance I could get in this lifetime. And no more? What if that dream I let go is still within me and will never leave no matter how much time had passed.

What if it's all enough that it happened?

I don't understand the path I am taking. I know nothing of what I have become. But now, I'm wondering. What if, all of this is not what I thought they are? and that I should not dwell no more on what had happened but seize the moment I'm in right now.

And hopefully, embrace what has become of me.


(image is a snippet from the book 'Great Expectations' by Charles Dickens)
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