A drug that makes you feel relieved while on it, convince you that all is well or a miracle is going to happen instantly but then again miracle has already find her own people . Well, It stops the pain you feel in the inside that cannot be explained in words no matter how much you can try. Allows you to hold on in that certain moment and gives you a reason to believe once more time. It makes you feel numb to can even feel the double edge sword cutting through your veins.

All for a minute, cause once I become sober of what has become a religion I have been taught is not a reality of what life is all about, I still feel the pain even way too deep. I still see the shattered dreams of what my prayers should have now turned them into a reality. I still see a broken reflection of me that is still trying to find healing that seems to be miles away. Sometimes I don't want to believe anymore neither pray yet prayer has become an antidepressant that if I don't take I feel incomplete.

I still hope because hope has no price tag on it, yet hope always have me bandaging countless wounds.

© HOPE.N❤️