(P.S. This is not a factual account or an attempt at an autobiography. This is just one millionth of my personal thoughts and experience in black-and-white)








I knew you first when I had watched the movie ‘PK’ with my family. I remember how madly, suddenly I had this sudden intense crush on ‘that cute guy who played the role of Sarfaraaz’, and had earned a thoroughly disapproving glare from my mother when I had quite innocently tried to ask her for the actor’s name.

But when she had left, I remember my grandmother whispering to me, with a dreamy smile, “Did you like him or something?" I remember her response when i had answered her question. “Same.”





Now as the whole nation grieves for your untimely and shocking death, a common question looms persistently in the minds of millions: What had gone wrong?
It was not a failed surgical operation or a sudden heart-attack that had ‘snatched’ you away.  Your death was more of a desperate means to find light amidst an infinite gloomy hall of darkness, or more relevantly, an exhausted soul who, all alone at his apartment in Bandra —had resorted to mitigate a searing incident/ series of incidents of depression, frustration and loneliness.




You were my constant heart-throb, eversince I was a mere 13 year old girl studying in class 6 – I being just an inconspicuous member of a nation full of millions of fans. I remember how my best friends used playfully tease me about you once for instance by singing ‘Chaar kadam’ loudly in the school-field.






I remember how I used to swoon, ever so secretly in front of my parents, whenever I saw you on TV or on Google with that vibrant smile of yours, as bright as summer sunshine, setting both my heart and my cheeks on fire. And yet the long list of your achievements was so much more than what my childish, vulnerable, impressionable mind had ever registered.





Years ago, you had proved your merit and intelligence by bagging a whooping RANK 7 in AIEEE—the present-day JEE mains equivalent and ,later on, dropping as a third-year B Tech student to pursue your passion of acting and have since proved your worth.



Critically experienced actors such as Akshay Kumar, SRK and many such others have appreciated the talent and constant hard work that went into any movie-role you set your heart upon.You have performed versatile roles—the praises of which will never be sufficient to give justice to the toil that you underwent to perfect them all.







I have no doubt that you, such an accomplished veteran actor, would have become a critically acclaimed ‘legend’ in a few decades to come.  And now as you waft about somewhere amidst ethereal nothingness- far, far away from a world full of grieve-stricken well-wishers- I, pen down an infinith particle of my sore aching heart,at the same time, praying to the Creator to keep your soul safe in His arms and your devastated loved ones in His boundless grace.