So, Again,
To my dear perfectly imperfect emotions,
To my dear perfecty imperfect past,present or future.What can I say...As already I left with no words to say...You disturbed me alot from past few day...still,Disturbing me to quit the race.As I already faced suicidal thoughts.Even you forced me many times to pick up call the of suicidal thoughts..but, my peaceful trust at God and faith at our own selves to never leave the field.. i rejected all calls in past..But, Today..from last one week you'r forcing me to pick that one..or chose that one option only.You forced me many times to wish for death..even in past once you already Got convinced to FulFill that wish....But, Again today..You gave me a morning moment.. a kinda horrible and breaking dream where I just saw my own end...Standing at the edge of life..Where I answered the call of suicidal thoughts..and without shouting or uttering a word...saw my wish getting fulfilled..After that piece of priceless moment I tried hard to forget about that second..But, It's hard as you know..So, now just last time I'm requesting you not to torture me more..cuz I lost all of my strong selves..all of my true trust at God..Still trying to build that faith with more positive attitude..but, it's true I left with no words now..With a hope to give me a perfect spark Again..Last time..I'm requesting you to offer me all things again not snatch my imperfect lifeless hearty emotions..

( Just sprinkled my own feelings and emotions from what I'm dealing now..Truly..Got sign of relief again....)❤
© Jasni ahuja