So my mom moved where my brother and sister father would come over to see my mom. At first I didn't know until one night, I woke up to a bad dream of someone trying to kill me. I woke up and ran in my mothers room to see her on top of my brother and sister father but I was the only one until 9 months later, when my brother was born. Come to find out it was a possibility of someone else being his father but I didn't hear about that until later on. If my mom wasn't entertaining some dude, it was her friends and card parties. My brother is born now, and at that time I had resentment towards him because maybe as a kid I didn't get the same love and excitement as I saw him getting. Everyone was happy and his father was around and his father side of the family was very close. I would always hear negativity, like I was a mistake. That's how I always felt, so one day me and my brother sitting in the living room. My mom and his father was in the master bedroom, so I don't remember what he did but I pulled his finger back. He couldn't talk but he was ankle to express himself to my mother and she beat me like no tomorrow. My mom and her sister was horrible at communication with there kids. My mom sister would say, "Stupid half breeds, stupid little whore, you must be smelling your pussy, cause you think your grown" and screaming and yelling at us to sit down. Can't no one say nothing to her kids but she was her biggest problem anyways. My mom anyone can say whatever top her kids, she never had our back but I think she was too afraid to speak up for herself. She was good at using others to stick up for her. I end up moving again and at this time, my brother and sister father moved in with us. I had found out later on his next wife was in the picture in the past but because my mom got pregnant with my brother. That's why he stayed with my mom, he wanted a family. but as you know most black men have issues anyways and he was no different.
© Jocelyn Ceasar