this year started off dark and desolate. In a very cold and frigid home with barely any heat, two dogs and no other human contact. I mean I have my family however they live miles away and I hardly heard from them.

So it felt like a Joan Osborne song called One of us. My headspace wasn't good and the world seemed so bleak.

What a difference human touch and companionship really does make! which will diffently comes into play later in the year.

My elderly loving mother was living at my place at the time. however, like I've mentioned, my siblings never reached out. I put my life on hold as they had their own families. I did not. I ended up growing bitter and resentful however, I never took it out on my mother. I felt like it was my duty until she ended up falling over and over again ending up in the hospital. Now she lives with my loving sister.
she is more equipped to look after her because she has cameras and a bigger circle of people who could look after our mother. because during that time I was filled with anxiety and lots of stress trying to keep down a full-time job as well. Looking back now. we had some awesome memories we would ride to the mountains or enjoy a bottle of wine. watching television mainly watching old shows like Andy Griffith and mash.

Sometime in February I ended up quitting drinking cold turkey for at least Five months and joining a gym about this time I felt like a ray of sunshine had shined upon my life and I was moving in a positive direction. opportunities were flourishing.

To be continued...


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