In class there was a new girl. First I didn't see anything spacial in her but when I started to talk to her I just wish she saw herself like I saw her. I didn't just see her as my friend I saw her as my life my home.

we started to hang out and have fun and one day she asked me "what's the meaning of life" I didn't know how to respond I just sat in silence.
everyone has a secret I just wish I saw her secret she was right there. but I didn't see her inside.
she looked like a fun person to talk to. I felt that she was to happy.

I didn't see the fake smile that she kept on for many years. now we are 18. we smoke drink do stupid stuff. and she asked me the same question "what's the meaning of like? " I looked at her as I took a smoke I didn't say anything again.

now we are 20 and I wanted to confess to her but it was to late when I saw the bathroom door open and the blood that drip over I saw her smile but I cried. I read the note that was biased her and it said "what's the meaning of life? " I smiled and got up and left.

now I'm 30 and I forgotten everything about her but one day I met a girl that act like her. she seemed a bit to happy. so I stayed very close to her.

"she reminds me of you" I said and she laughed and asked me "who" I smiled and just confess to her as she said yes. I was happy but deep inside me I felt the guilt that the new girl was looking above me.