you may not be my first but babe you are my last I might get on your nurves and worry all the time because of my past I just dont want to fuck up and lose you you mean everything to me my heart belongs to u. I love you with all my body and soul and I can't wait till the day we marry. I want to hear your vows. I want to see your face when u see my wedding dress. my worse fear is you not being able to handle all of my mental issues but all I want is that assurance from you that I never got from anyone else. I love being in your arms and you running your soft hands through my hair telling me its alright not to worry and not to fear your not going anywhere I need that because when I don't I hear the voices in my head that tells me things that upsets me and puts me down. I just hope you understand what I been through and it has me in deep depression and anxiety. I only had 2 real relationships and both failed both lead me to how I am today. constantly asking if i did something wrong. I want our relationship where I can go to you and just talk with out u getting upset,mad,irritated and annoyed by repeating myself. I want to last a lifetime with you not a couple months. I want our relationship to be where you come to me and tell me everything even if its going to hurt my feelings. when I say I love you I mean that with all my heart.
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