When I was a kid, I expected more from everyone. I loved too much and I expected the same, I trusted too much and I expected the same, I respected too much and I expected the same from other people. But I never got it. The set of people I was looking up upon for those things to be reciprocated gave me the opposite of them. Hate, betrayal, disrespect and embarrassment. And so I lived a caged life all through my life as a child. Never having friends or people around me so I wouldn't be hurt.
And now I'm 20.... maturity has made my self esteem wider. I wouldn't love if I wasn't loved by someone, I wouldn't respect the person if they won't respect me and the list could go on and on. I've learnt to put up a standard on myself so no one would drag me to the mud. But sometimes when you've made up your mind on something there's a force that breaks every wall you've built for years and make you relax on the...