the conversation
he said he was an afghanistan veteran whose wife died and he understood loss now and that in afghanistan he shot intruders in the head and was going to testify in court because the dirty b word he dealt cocaine with had lifted 20.000 off him incrementally......this as one suspicious car after the other shone headlights on his face did nothing else and left.....he wanted to know if I had hope or believed in eternal life or was ever married with children....i said i dont tolerate the epic of life theoretically or feelings in general it's anti feminist nor bother thinking about religion...people think about it to much and it's language poetics it sounds nice and the transcendent change in space is all that matters.....he felt some type of roman gladiator was living for 1000s of years....i said if I relationship it's abusive and I dont have a skin to see deeply into the traditional coke relationship of you serve he labor at the mine.....but eventually most energies that abused me in life started sharing its power non chalance and ability to not care it's abusive or not....so...