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Unrequited Lonesome part 2
The moment I swallowed the pills and gabbled down the water, I felt a knot in my stomach and it all started to unreveal, my insides were forcing out the life in me even though I knew it would be painless for it, I couldn't help but feel guilty,like a murderer that didn't need anything other than being struck to death, I felt a sense of not belonging, as the blood started to drip I felt something inside of me die, something I wouldn't forgive or forget in a hurry about myself.
The next few hours were incomprehensible and indescribable, the pain my body was exerting was one I knew I had to go through because of what I had done, Laura came to my side to hold me because she saw as much I wanted to handle it on my own I was failing miserably which I appreciated and in that moment owed her a lot, I slid into bed and just looked up to God and asked him to take me back into his fold and forgive me, I told him I deserved it and I know it was his way of letting me know that he was by my side but I have to feel that pinch.
Harley on the other hand was shy, vulnerable when no one was looking and like to compress and compartmental his feeling so I knew as much as he liked to act tough he was a softie as much to his dislike that, that's what I thought about him.
Harley
I was driving from a nearby town going home when she told me she had taken them, I felt a lump on my throat but I swallowed it back down, I sent her some encouragement,even though I felt guilty that I wasn't there to comfort her, we had agreed and I had already compressed it my mind. After an hour or so a text flicked on my phone shaking I read it and my stopped she was in pain and I knew at this point anything could be said, I didn't blame her if she detested me or never wanted me again,I had caused her enough pain even though she did the same sometimes it can't be compared to what I did, I felt sorry and wanted her to know that, so I apologised and continued my drive, I started clearing my head and let myself delve and understand the music playing in the background but more importantly I become one with the music.
#part2#unrequitedlonesome#part3comingsoon.
The next few hours were incomprehensible and indescribable, the pain my body was exerting was one I knew I had to go through because of what I had done, Laura came to my side to hold me because she saw as much I wanted to handle it on my own I was failing miserably which I appreciated and in that moment owed her a lot, I slid into bed and just looked up to God and asked him to take me back into his fold and forgive me, I told him I deserved it and I know it was his way of letting me know that he was by my side but I have to feel that pinch.
Harley on the other hand was shy, vulnerable when no one was looking and like to compress and compartmental his feeling so I knew as much as he liked to act tough he was a softie as much to his dislike that, that's what I thought about him.
Harley
I was driving from a nearby town going home when she told me she had taken them, I felt a lump on my throat but I swallowed it back down, I sent her some encouragement,even though I felt guilty that I wasn't there to comfort her, we had agreed and I had already compressed it my mind. After an hour or so a text flicked on my phone shaking I read it and my stopped she was in pain and I knew at this point anything could be said, I didn't blame her if she detested me or never wanted me again,I had caused her enough pain even though she did the same sometimes it can't be compared to what I did, I felt sorry and wanted her to know that, so I apologised and continued my drive, I started clearing my head and let myself delve and understand the music playing in the background but more importantly I become one with the music.
#part2#unrequitedlonesome#part3comingsoon.
