Starting over @ 29
I am stressed.
I was this close to begging for money, I heard GoFundMe was a way to go.
yet I felt like an utter failure creating that account.
so I paused.
why is it it that the kids who are old souls suffer so much in life?
don't we deserve peace?
I feel alone and stuck.
I live in a country where opportunities are non existent.
even before covid.
I am not doubting that I won't get myself out of this situation, it's the not knowing.
I've send out resumes, made calls and now I am tired.
I've been doing this for years.
I can't even call this starting over...I never started to begin with.
that may be depression talking, but there's always some truth when the emotions are bared raw.
I am not doubting God, I am doubting myself.
a job is all I need now...no, a strong bond with God is what I need but a job is necessary right now.
it means food.
not being ungrateful, I hope it doesn't come off that way, I am just terrified.
what's gonna happen now?
© C.Wynter
I was this close to begging for money, I heard GoFundMe was a way to go.
yet I felt like an utter failure creating that account.
so I paused.
why is it it that the kids who are old souls suffer so much in life?
don't we deserve peace?
I feel alone and stuck.
I live in a country where opportunities are non existent.
even before covid.
I am not doubting that I won't get myself out of this situation, it's the not knowing.
I've send out resumes, made calls and now I am tired.
I've been doing this for years.
I can't even call this starting over...I never started to begin with.
that may be depression talking, but there's always some truth when the emotions are bared raw.
I am not doubting God, I am doubting myself.
a job is all I need now...no, a strong bond with God is what I need but a job is necessary right now.
it means food.
not being ungrateful, I hope it doesn't come off that way, I am just terrified.
what's gonna happen now?
© C.Wynter
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