This I know that I belong to someone ,something way bigger then on this earth .That is more powerful then any mankind or creed. All my life I never felt as I was as everyone else. There was something so overwhelming. The best way for me to explain it was like 4th of July at the very end of the firework show. Never could I ever hate anyone ,yes their where things I disliked that they did. Let me go back to 1987. That summer of 1987 I wasn't even 4 years old yet. My sister Tabby, was a year younger then I was and my brother Tommy was just a few months old at the time. He was born in July that year. There Daddie Had passed away. How he passed away is a different story to be told. We where heading to put flowers on his grave that day. My mom and her new boyfriend had been drinking an other stuff that day. My grandmother tried to get her my mom not to take us. She didnt listen. The vehicle that they took was a van without any sets for the 3 of us kids to set in. My baby brother Tommy had his carset but Tabby and me had nothing but the floor in the back of the van that day. We got to Heaters in W.V. Still had a little way to go. On the back road to his grave the truck was coming the opposite direction the guy that was driving had been drinking as well hit us. My little sister was hanging out of the van my little brother was on his side in his carset in the van .Me, my mom said she looked back an there was blood coming out of my ears,my nose, she didn't think much of it till I began throwing up blood. She said then I justed stopped breathing. She began CPR on me. It wasn't to long after she began the CPR a older lady come out of no where took me from my mom to the Hospital in Grantsville W.V. from there I was life-flighted to Ruby Memorial Hospital in Morgantown W.V. My sister Tabby an baby brother Tommy they where took to Grantsville Hospital W.V. they just had a few bruises on there body. By the time I got to the Hospital my Aunt Ann was already their waiting . She lived up that way any way. She told me when she saw me they where doing everything to bring me back. She was told by the Dr. that they didn't know if I was going to make it that she needed to call the family an let them know. My grandmother,Uncle, Great Aunts, And Uncles where on there way out my grandmother told her my Aunt Ann to pray, that right now it was in Gods hands that we had to trust Him. Just a year ago she told me what she prayed that evening. I never understood till then why I had always felt the way I had. And why my Family Had always treated me so different from the other kids. Also why I had to go through all I had to. In that Chapel She begged Jesus Christ, God if he would Let me live our family would make sure I would follow His commandments,His ways I belonged to him has always for him to use me to do his well .No matter it would take my uncle ,granny,and her my aunt ann would. She told me when the rest of the family made it their they had a Priest from the Hospital as well 3 Nuns gather around my bed that whole night till morning they prayed over me. The Dr. told my family that I was brain dead there where nothing they eles they could do for me to talk it over with the whole family about pulling me off of everything. That didn't take long for them to answer. For 6 long months between my Aunt Ann,Grandmother, and my Uncle they would stay with me praying over me. I don't care if any on believe me . I rember being in this very beautiful place it was so peaceful, I didn't feel no pain nothing I didn't even know at that time I was in a coma and on life support. I was dressed in a white dress their was this man that was so kind so nice .His eyes ,the way he would talk to me. I rember him telling me that I would go through things in my life that I would see things that was very bad that men shouldn't be doing that I would feel pain that men,would do very hurtful things to me. That I'll be okay that I was very strong that I belonged to His Father. For me never to fear anything to always rember an trust him when he told me that he will always be with me. I didn't like that I had to leave him I didn't want to go back an live with the people I was. You'll be fine I will always be with you. He told me more. Everything that I was told has came true. The man the very same voice I hear today is the very same when I was little. I wake up after 6 months. The Dr.s told my family that I would never be able to talk,walk, I would live the rest of my life in a bed. My grandmother and Uncle said I looked at both of them sat up and looked over at my Uncle stood up at the Edge of my bed walked over to him my Uncle. The Dr's couldn't believe there eyes. My Aunt Ann,an Uncle said I would wounder off to the playroom down the hall in the Hospital by my self always be talking an playing with someone but they couldn't see anyone every time. I know I am a Child of God. That he is real. The things I've lived through. Everything I know.The mans voice I hear all the time is the very same when I was little. We are all his Children. Each one of us belong to him.
PSALM 34:11
11:Come,ye children,hearken unto me: I will teach you the fear of the Lord.
ROMANS 8:16-17
16: The Spirit itself beareth witness with our Spirit that we are the Children of God.
17: And if Children then heirs of God and joint-heirs with Christ if so be that we suffer with him that we may be also glorified together.

© carolyn L Barbe