Accusations not being verbally transmuted
Privacy breaches
Everyone is connected ? And their abusing leaves you disconnected

They know ,
How do they
Believe it to be so
Fade away

Take my mind and rewind
But youll find
It doesn't fix change or stop this pain
I am emotional
But lesser every day
Greet when you meet
But not with a smile
Im incomplete. So manipulation
Is the new situation
How many thought it be funny
I hear you laugh on my cellphone
Slam down the call
Feeling so small
I wonder if at all
You sympathize with me
But i doubt it
You have subjected me and now here i am suffering.
I should make it known because
You care only you own
Jesus christ
What a fucking heist
What is real ,genuine
Well ill just bever know
I dont want to go through this
Matter of fact I did tell you to be responsible
You did not listen no one listens to my words no one hears me but they do hear me but I guess it's irrelevant but don't come to me when all is said and done and tell me that I'm the one that's being irresponsible because I'm the one that had been responsible this whole time just finding out that you had resembled a character that I did not expect you to ever resemble and I always wish the best that you were just pretending but or that you had become but in all reality I think you are what you were pretending to become you are what you have become you have destroyed my life you have I truly cared you took everything from me and you're the only one that I focused on what for I want so bad to be mad at you because if I can't I'm going to look like the idiot again do you expect me to make a sacrifice for someone who just doesn't even f****** want me to live you were fake or you are fake I am not the center of a joke I am not your entertainment I am not the bad guy I'm not the good guy either why you do this for money because this is not like you but it's too late all has been said and done and now I suffer and you're getting away with everything congratulations you fooled me
But I will not f****** be alive to be a part of your f****** hive mind evolution s*** I said I had wanted no part you should have listened but it just got worse
Why to someone who always tried to see the good in you who always tried to understand you be able to voice to others among Us that their perception was faulty
Always in your corner maybe not the way you would have preferred but always always in your corner unconditional but how how could someone say unconditional and then lay down conditions
You assume that's not my fault but I could not be expected to consume all your hatred due to the consumption of information that you were subjected to but not by me I had nothing to do with that it's you that places yourself wherever but you would call me out and it haunt me it haunts me you said to send to send to send while I'm not a mother f****** demon what do you mean to send decent why did you turn so evil why did you take it out all on me if you believe that I have suffered then why did you make it happen again we had sensible conversations and I clearly stated but I guess time tells and it did tell and you did not listen to what I clearly stated in this is not my fate you do not control my fate but yet everyone tries to control my faith so there's always barriers in the way of me getting what I want in my fate so how will I ever achieve any goal if there's always some kind of circumstance which I have to be subjected to which goes against me and prevents me from living life and you expect me to put a smile on my face and you expect me to be okay but I'm not okay in this I'll never be okay and everything about this is hard everything even when I don't f****** show it I don't have to tell it I don't have to tell anything and that's my right and you're trying to take that away and you're willing to put me through any intense situation just to hear me break down and hear what I'll say like you think I'm holding up some sort of f****** secret but there ain't no secret being held up there's just stuff that is my information and there is stuff that is your information and I don't like when I feel f****** trapped so if you think that my mouth is going to be loose slipped then your f****** wrong but you still persist and everyone is still persist to make my life a living hell and they don't believe I'm suffering but no I'll have you know I am suffering but I just hope it f****** ends soon but I don't think it ever will end I think I know where I stand I think I know what I'm labeled as I think I know what I'm good for and what I'm not good for I think I know that no one has patience and no one has the time to deal with me or respect me no one has the time to ask me no one can see no one will ever see me and it's all because of my lack of being able to connect and focusing on you all these years and you you just downright ruined me
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