Apologies To My Daughter
I’m sorry you have seclude yourself and drown the thoughts that shout loudly in your head with unnecessary attention. Burying your memories with each inhale of the happiness that numbs the fucking world. You can’t mend your heart whole again no matter how hard you try. I’m sorry I failed you. You didn’ deserve any heart ache or sadness. You deserved to play at the park with your brother and swing as high as you can on a swing. You should of been playing with dolls instead of playing mom. You deserved sitting in the yard patting down mud you made making mud pies. I’m sorry I wasn’t there for you and chose the fast life instead. I’m sorry I couldn’t save you. Now my biggest nightmare that I could possibly ever could of dreamt is your traumatic history. I’m sorry you have to live with all this hurt for the rest of your life. I wish I could take all the tears you cried and cry them for you. Surviving has always been the hardest part for you. Chosing to make others happy first because you just want god damn peace. I’m sorry I was broken by the bitch that I left you with. It’s not your fault you resent me. I’m so sorry I broke your heart into pieces. Piecing them back one by one all alone. Mom is so sorry she failed you.

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