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SOME MEMORIES STILL HAUNTS, SOME SCARS YOU CAN'T DEFINE
Dear diary,
Today I'm writing to you my own story. A part of life where I was destroyed mentally. The year was 2017 when I met one of my previous batchmate. He was a good batchmate in school but not friend. I met him through mutuals and we talked for few days where we mostly discussed about careers. You don't know someone's true intentions with you which is the truth of life. I never knew what was going on in his mind. One day he asked me to go with him to Oyo, I was confused. My reaction was Oyo q? Kya Krna h tmko? He tried to force his decisions on me. I refused. He used words which I can't express in words how painful it was. He said - Aj k time me kitna waqt lagta h Ghar ka address nikalne me ya phir ek acid me? Tum smjhi na? I was blank, totally blank. I didn't knew his motive in first attempt. Deep down my trust on Lord Krishna saved me. I decided I will share this with family but I knew all consequences further that stopped me from doing so. I was shattered. I decided to use Lord Krishna teachings. Krishna says - kisi ko bachane k liye bola hua jhoot sab sach se upar h. I made a plan so that he couldn't harm me and leave my life. This exactly happened, he left. The trauma he had given was unbearable. I had built a wall around me and I never allowed anyone to be inside it. I was wrong after I met Arjun. Arjun made me believe on him, his love. I trusted and loved Arjun more than myself.Arjun and I shared so much, I've seen things which he doesn't show to the world, his stress, tears everything. I know his volcano inside which he never shares with anyone and I've accepted his every shade with all my heart. I've been with him mentally but in one snap, it feels like it's he left. He left like I was nothing to him and yes this is hard to engulf. I know I won't be able to connect to any person in my life anymore. Why people come in life and connect even when their decision is to leave. Am I puppet? It is hard, very hard,you know that. I have loved Arjun only. If nation's most desirable person will also come infront of me still my desirable person will be Arjun for my whole life. Why is he not trying to do anything? Why is he letting me go? Do we had a story or we never had a story? Now Arjun made me believe that I was right with my perspective of surroundings walls around me and not allowing anyone to enter, nobody will ever love me the way Krishna does. Lord Krishna is the only one who won't leave. Thank you Krishna and diary for listening to my life...
Yours,
Vanshika
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Today I'm writing to you my own story. A part of life where I was destroyed mentally. The year was 2017 when I met one of my previous batchmate. He was a good batchmate in school but not friend. I met him through mutuals and we talked for few days where we mostly discussed about careers. You don't know someone's true intentions with you which is the truth of life. I never knew what was going on in his mind. One day he asked me to go with him to Oyo, I was confused. My reaction was Oyo q? Kya Krna h tmko? He tried to force his decisions on me. I refused. He used words which I can't express in words how painful it was. He said - Aj k time me kitna waqt lagta h Ghar ka address nikalne me ya phir ek acid me? Tum smjhi na? I was blank, totally blank. I didn't knew his motive in first attempt. Deep down my trust on Lord Krishna saved me. I decided I will share this with family but I knew all consequences further that stopped me from doing so. I was shattered. I decided to use Lord Krishna teachings. Krishna says - kisi ko bachane k liye bola hua jhoot sab sach se upar h. I made a plan so that he couldn't harm me and leave my life. This exactly happened, he left. The trauma he had given was unbearable. I had built a wall around me and I never allowed anyone to be inside it. I was wrong after I met Arjun. Arjun made me believe on him, his love. I trusted and loved Arjun more than myself.Arjun and I shared so much, I've seen things which he doesn't show to the world, his stress, tears everything. I know his volcano inside which he never shares with anyone and I've accepted his every shade with all my heart. I've been with him mentally but in one snap, it feels like it's he left. He left like I was nothing to him and yes this is hard to engulf. I know I won't be able to connect to any person in my life anymore. Why people come in life and connect even when their decision is to leave. Am I puppet? It is hard, very hard,you know that. I have loved Arjun only. If nation's most desirable person will also come infront of me still my desirable person will be Arjun for my whole life. Why is he not trying to do anything? Why is he letting me go? Do we had a story or we never had a story? Now Arjun made me believe that I was right with my perspective of surroundings walls around me and not allowing anyone to enter, nobody will ever love me the way Krishna does. Lord Krishna is the only one who won't leave. Thank you Krishna and diary for listening to my life...
Yours,
Vanshika
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