Everytime I look at the mirror, there's this feeling of me that I'm seeing someone else, which is not me. My eyes,my nose, my lips, and even my smile,it's so not me. Wanna know why? If my father is still alive, you'll see no difference, my face and him. We totally have the same look,not just a resemblance but,all of the angle were perfectly copied from him.

Whenever I smile, my mother will always say, "You're perfectly look like your father,that's why I hated you." Words from her ever since I was little. Those words keep repeating on my mind. The question is why? Why is it that she has to hate me just because he saw the face of my father through me?

Is it my fault that she felt out of love with him? Is it my fault that my father is not worthy for her? Funny right? Like, I'm innocent, I didn't beg for them to give me life at the first place.

How much more if I became a boy? Should I be thankful that I'm a girl but still have the looks of my father? HAHA! :')

Parents should love their child in a way without comparing her nor him to anyone. Don't put the blame on them just because you failed. Don't put all the hatred on them just because you're broke. Never let them suffer and rob their self confidence just because you parents can't accept them for what they are.

Love your child as if they're your other half. Without them, you're lacking a piece of your self. Pushing your child away from you is like slicing your heart with a sharp knife, anytime it will rip you into pieces and left you with a bleeding heart full of regrets.

Never let your puzzle lack it's missing piece even if it's just one piece of it. Love takes a whole heart to renew, if your heart lost its half, you can never rebuild it forever.

NOW, I LEARNED THAT SEEING MY FATHER'S REFLECTION IN THE MIRROR IS NOT THAT BAD. IT IS A PART OF MY PERSONALITY AS A WHOLE. I CAN EMBRACE HIM ANYTIME I WANTED TO,EVEN IF HE'S ALREADY GONE, HE STILL LEFT THIS UNFORGETTABLE SIGNATURE THAT NO ONE CAN ERASE.
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