I feel like I've never had a heartbreak by anyone before. I look at people around me and they all seem to be just lost in the memories of their lovers, with whom they were separated years ago and their fragrance still lingers around them. Even after years , all they want to talk about is, them. They put up status and stories on social media in their remembrance , listen to songs which bring their memories back. They smell a perfume and go into the flashback. They cry themselves to sleep at night, dreaming about their lovers.

Now, seeing all this , I feel like my life was a lie, my thoughts were temporary, my feelings were fake, I thought my heartbeat used to race with his just one text message. But now I'm not sure if it was his message that my heart responded to.
My stomach used to feel butterflies with just one glimpse of him, or was it something else I felt?
I thought I was in love . But now, I'm not sure. Was I really in love? Or was it something else I felt around him? Or it was all just an illusion?

Because, after all this time, I no longer find myself lost in his memories. I no longer recognise his scent. I no longer think about him. I no longer talk about him. I no longer listen to songs to bring our memories back.
I no longer cry myself to sleep at night.
I no longer dream about him.
Well, I no longer love him.

© Su