Sakshi kept asking me what I wanted to tell her and I kept lying 'nothing special.' I was feeling like I am cheating with her. Though love is the strongest power of a person that gives him energy to endure in all circumstances but it is the biggest weakness too that makes him so helpless that he doesn't have any other choices for him except doing what he doesn't want to. And my condition was similar too. I was lying again and again and kept changing topic. At last she said "okay, I believe you" but her eyes were telling that I made her a little upset. But what could I do except bowing my eyes. After that we both went college, I was dying to tell her everything, as a person can bear all the pain alone but can't happiness. He always need a person with whom he can celebrate his happiness. But the chains of love held me and I could not say anything.
"Okay, we will meet at the park in the evening" she said while leaving for her home.
"Yeah sure, bye" I nodded my head.
She left and suddenly I received a phone call that made me smile as always.
"How is my love doing? Did you get home?" The other voice entered my ears turning my cheeks red.
"No, I am on the way home," I replied clearing my voice so that the person, on the other side, couldn't get my shyness.
"Okay, let me give a company my love"
Then we talked until I reached my destination, to be honest, it was the shortest travel I ever did.
"I got myself home," I told him.
"So you want me to hang up call,okay" he said mischievously.
"No, I didn't mean that," I quickly replied.
He laughed a bit "I know, I know, so let's meet in the evening."
I knew it but I was puzzled. Sakshi would be there and he didn't want to tell that we were boyfriends. So I told him "Raj, Sakshi will also come today"
"Really?" He almost shouted and his voice was full of enthusiasm.
I felt awkward but sometimes we have some thoughts and we don't want them to be true so we don't even think about them.
"Yeah" I smiled.
"Okay, we will meet there.... aaa... by the way...Did you..." He wanted to ask something and I understood what he wanted to say,
"No, don't worry, I didn't tell her and I won't until you are ready" I said in a comforting tone.
"Thanks, okay let's meet in the evening, bye, love you" he said
"Bye,l... love...you...too" I said while looking here and there and hung up the phone.

In the evening, I and Sakshi went to the park, I was very confused about what would happen and what was happening. Raj was already waiting there. And seeing him, my breath stopped for a moment. He was looking gorgeous in a black T-shirt and black jeans, I never ever realized that he could look that much amazing! But thee were more things that I never realized and were gonna happen in my life for the very first time to make me amazed to the death.
"Hi, if I am not mistaken, you're Sakshi?" As soon as he saw us, he said. His eyes were telling how much he was happy that time but who was that happiness for? Who knows, I couk only guess that he was happy to see me. Love is the only thing that makes us so much optimist that we kept lying to us that everything is okay.
"Hi, do I know you?" Sakshi replied trying to recognize that unknown face.
"Sakshi, he is Raj, my... Friend" I said.
"Your friend?" Sakshi widened her eyes in wonder as she knew that I didn't have many friends.
"Yeah, we are close friends," Raj said turning to me and he winks making me blush hard.
"Nice to meet you, Raj" Sakshi said while approaching him for a handshake.
"Same here," he also responded and moved a little closer to her, "by the way, you look more gorgeous than Aryan told me." And Sakshi smiled and bowed her eyes to the grass.
I didn't like that, he was too close...but they were friends now... so... yeah! I was trying hard to suppressed those thoughts.
After that we all took a visit to the entire park while Sakshi and Raj were having casual conversation. While leaving from there, Sakshi said to me, "You never told me that you have such a handsome friend" and I knew that he was indirectly complimenting Raj. Raj smiled, "but he told me that he has the most beautiful girl as her best friend." My face was red due to jealousy but I was helpless.
"Okay Sakshi, let's leave," I said while glaring at Raj. But Raj didn't give any reaction like he didn't even care about me. We left from there, what else I could do? Sakshi also kept talking about Raj and kept asking how he was and when I did meet him.

The very next morning, I received a call as always.
"How is my love today?" And that voice as always made me smile and all my worries went away.
"Yes, your love is fine but how is my love?" I asked.
"He is fine too,"
And after that we have a good conversation. But suddenly he said something that gave me tension again, "hey Aryan, Can you give me Sakshi's phone number?"
"Why?" This word sprouted out of my mouth quickly.
He softly replied as if he was already prepared for it, "Why? Shouldn't I have my BOYFRIEND'S best friend number, in case if I am unable to contact BOYFRIEND, I can contact his best friend," he pressured boyfriend word do much that I was blushing hard and tied the band of love on my eyes. I was completely blind in his love and believing everything whatever he was telling me.
Now everything started changing in my life. Everything was happening in front of me still I was not believing. Once, while going to park Sakshi asked me if I could give both of them a space to private talk and I am again so helpless that I can't do anything.

Now in the park, both of them talk a lot and I just kept sitting on another bench. They kept talking sitting closely, holding hands. I used to be happy some days ago that I have someone special in my life, I used to feel completed having hin but now I was feeling that I was alright when I had no one. Atleast, I didn't have this kind of fear that my world would be destroyed as I didn't have any world, I didn't have anyone's threat that he would snatch my love as I didn't have anything with such name.
I wasn't feeling well, I wanted to stop this and it was only when Raj agreed to confess that we were boyfriends.
Sakshi left and me and Raj were standing in the park. The sun had gone and he left some light at the sky but it wasn't enough to hide stars. I approached Raj and held his hands, "Raj, I am not feeling well with it. I am not saying that I don't trust you but I am saying I love you. Please, let's tell Sakshi everything."
He widened his eyes, "what's wrong with you, don't you understand that I don't want to tell her about it. You bitch, can't you shut your mouth for more time." He jerked my hands pushing me away and left from there.
Bitch! Was this the word I always wished for love to hear, did I wait so long for this.
He didn't call me the next morning, I thought he was mad so I called him back and the line was busy on another call. After 2 or 3 hours he called me back, "hello Aryan, dis you call me? Is anything urgent?"
What could I reply? What should have I said that you didn't call me this morning so my morning wasn't start yet. You didn't wish me a good morning so my day wasn't gonna be good?
I just controlled my feelings and cleared my voice do that other person couldn't get my sobs, "nothing, just wanna wish a good morning"
"Why did you call, you could watsapp" he replied quickly as if he didn't understand what I did want to tell.
"Yeah, sorry I disturbed you" I said and tears broke all the boundaries annd started showing my pain.
"It's alright, okay bye" he said and hung up the call. And here, I was expecting for the reply 'love, you can never disturb me'
I was watching everything being ruined. I couldn't tell my pain to anyone, not even to the Sakshi. I was taking the sips of pain at every moment of my life. I left going to the park. Sakshi asked me for the reason so I told her that I am not feeling well but Raj didn't even call me. I used to message him and I used to get replie s after hours. Whenever I called him, the line was always busy and the same with Sakshi. I was feeling like I lost both My best friend and my boyfriend.
That night I was awake late because it was Raj's birthday, and I wanted to wish him first.
As the clock announced that it was 12am I messaged him
Your Arms are like my home, where I get the peace and strength to live. You give me the joy, love, and light in my life. Happy Birthday to the person who is full of comforts.
But I didn't get any reply even when he was online. And around after half an hour I just got 'thankyou, and please come at my birthday party around 9pm'
And his message again disappeared my all pain, all worriers. I again thought that it was all my stupid thought. Maybe he was busy these days. But when the fog of love ends, the seed of doubt becomes a thorny tree of faith.
I wanted to give him a very special gift on his first birthday after our relationship. I worked all day long and made a beautiful album in which I had imprisoned every moment of our love journey as pictures. It was the beautiful memories of my and Raj. I wrapped it with dark blue sheet as it was Raj's favorite color. I was driving the car and thinking that I would sort out all the problems tonight. If he was mad, I would beg for his forgive and told him to forget everything and asked him for a new start. If he doesn't want to tell Sakshi, I wouldn't tell. I would tell him that I could bear everything but not his half-hearted behavior. I shut my car's door and ran to his home. I pushed the door to open and...the front view gave me the biggest shock of my life, so big that I felt my feet lifeless, I couldn't remain stand and sait against the door. Raj and Sakshi was kissing, sitting on the couch, the birthday cake was lying on the table which was already cut.
I fell so loud on the ground that both of them saw me and the Sakshi blushed and ran out of there while saying "I will tell you later about it"
I was not conscious, my heart had stopped beating. My breath was stopped for a monent. I was shaken up inside. And Raj was smiling seeing me in that condition. I got up and slowly waked to him, "Raj, Raj... what was that, Raj?" I whispered.
He was still smiling and rubbing hid neck. I was shivering badly and my words were breaking, tears were leaving my eyes as if they were racing.
I put my both hands on his cheeks softly "Raj... Raj please tell me, what was that?"
His eyes filled with disgust, he pushed me away making me fall on the ground, "how dare you to touch me, you bloody faggot! And don't you know that was a kiss," he replied in a high pitch. He was wiping his cheeks angrily.
I was shocked completely and I could say only a word, "Raj?"
"Yes, what did you think I really love you? No... Not at all! I am not a faggot like you. I was doing everything so that I could reach to Sakshi and could be the heir of his dad's property, a simple plan, dude!" He explained everything like it was nothing for him.
"What are you saying, you are kidding, aren't you?" I was still trying not to believe all this situation.
"Not at all! Dude, it's simple, Sakshi only talk to you not to other boys and you are the same, so i had to be closed to you so that I could be close to her."
"And what about my feelings," I asked while crying bitterly.
"Your feelings?" he started laughing, "You people don't have any life! You people don't have any feeling! Ahh... even breathing in the same room makes me feel disgusting! You bloody faggot!" And suddenly he kicked me, "Now, get out!"
I held her feet and started begging, "Raj, Raj please don't leave me, please! My dad is also rich. I will give my all property to you."
He started laughing, "I know you're a rich kid, tha'ts why I flirted with you bit I won't be able to live a life of faggot. Now out!"
I was continuously begging, "I will die....I won't be able to live without you....Raj please don't leave me!"
"Go to hell! I don't care. " He got too frustrated. He was moving towards the door, and I was being hauled away holding his leg. He kicked me out of the house and threw the gift on my face, "take this shit awaywith you too." And he shut the door. I kept crying for hours at his door but he didn't open his door.
I am sitting on this park bench alone again. My love story started from this bench and ended here too.
Really? The gay person doesn't have any life? any feelings? Does a person's entity depend upon the fact who he loves and what is the sex of his lover? Homosexulity can be a little different but can't be wrong. Don't know when everyone will accept us and will feel that we all are same and have same feelings.
#boyxboy #loveislove #bl #gay
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