A nice dinner at noon
I told her my truth
I told her mental illness has a history in my family
She joked that 'just like forest grump?'
She doesn't know the forest grumps every time a man ties a knot from his head to it's branches
She said Naa, we can't tie the knot
My love gone, I guess all that ties me to this world is hanging on the knot
Should I not?
If she can't see me as a human being with an ordinary illness
And not freak about mental illness
As though I were a freak,
Can you not?
In my mind, I'm just a man wandering in the forest with a knot and a line
Waiting, hoping, someone throws me a lifeline
Praying someone realises that a curved bone from polio is just an illness as OCD even though trolling my mental illness is already sufficient reason to give me PTSD
It's a tough season
Chastised for colour
Violated for gender
And you quickly discard when you hear mental illness awareness is on the agenda
It's just illness
You don't bully people for having the flu or for getting the pox
Why bully me just coz my brain doesn't function like yours inside the box
I'm human, just like you
I'm not a freak, I deserve love and care too
I just wish you realized this soon
It wouldn't have been my last words, it would have still been dinner at noon

@Jael

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