it all started when I feel like I deserve much more then what I settle for,my mind was all over the place so I stop an slow down they say in order the conquer the beast u have to became friends with the beast so that's what I did I let him in an allow him to feel comfortable I feed him with what ever I knew he wanted while he was enjoying I was planning my get back because this time I did not plan an talking I plan to just leave in...